1 00:00:46,481 --> 00:00:47,525 CHRIS: Mom! 2 00:00:49,266 --> 00:00:51,181 Mom! Help me. 3 00:00:51,225 --> 00:00:52,400 [GASPING] 4 00:00:54,271 --> 00:00:55,098 What is it? 5 00:00:55,142 --> 00:00:56,534 I wasn't dreaming, Walt. 6 00:00:56,578 --> 00:00:58,058 I didn't imagine it. 7 00:00:58,101 --> 00:01:00,190 I heard him. I heard him. I heard him. 8 00:01:00,234 --> 00:01:01,539 I heard Chris. 9 00:01:01,583 --> 00:01:03,367 I heard him! 10 00:01:03,411 --> 00:01:04,455 I know. 11 00:01:04,499 --> 00:01:07,197 No. I wasn't imagining it, Walt. 12 00:01:07,241 --> 00:01:10,200 No, I did. He's... He's... 13 00:01:10,244 --> 00:01:11,245 [SOBBING] 14 00:01:11,288 --> 00:01:12,376 I heard him! 15 00:01:12,420 --> 00:01:13,334 Billie. 16 00:03:40,263 --> 00:03:42,265 MAN: That's about as far as I can get you. 17 00:03:42,309 --> 00:03:44,354 CHRIS: All right. Thank you. 18 00:03:57,672 --> 00:03:59,978 You left all your shit on my dash. 19 00:04:00,022 --> 00:04:02,416 Keep it. 20 00:04:02,459 --> 00:04:04,461 Suit yourself. 21 00:04:04,505 --> 00:04:05,767 Thanks again. 22 00:04:07,769 --> 00:04:09,684 Hey, hold on a minute. 23 00:04:13,862 --> 00:04:14,906 Here, take these. 24 00:04:14,950 --> 00:04:16,734 They'll keep your feet dry. 25 00:04:18,301 --> 00:04:20,260 If you make it out alive, give me a call. 26 00:04:20,303 --> 00:04:22,566 My number's inside the boots. 27 00:04:22,610 --> 00:04:23,611 Thanks. 28 00:05:42,646 --> 00:05:45,867 ♪ Have no fear 29 00:05:45,910 --> 00:05:50,088 ♪ For when I'm alone 30 00:05:50,132 --> 00:05:54,484 ♪ I'll be better off 31 00:05:54,528 --> 00:05:58,532 ♪ Than I was before 32 00:05:58,575 --> 00:06:03,363 ♪ I've got this light 33 00:06:03,406 --> 00:06:07,802 ♪ I'll be around to grow 34 00:06:07,845 --> 00:06:11,849 ♪ Who I was before 35 00:06:11,893 --> 00:06:16,027 ♪ I cannot recall 36 00:06:16,071 --> 00:06:22,338 ♪ Long nights allow me to feel 37 00:06:22,382 --> 00:06:25,863 ♪ I'm falling I am falling 38 00:06:25,907 --> 00:06:29,650 ♪ The lights go out 39 00:06:29,693 --> 00:06:32,696 ♪ Let me feel I'm falling 40 00:06:32,740 --> 00:06:34,829 ♪ I am falling 41 00:06:34,872 --> 00:06:40,791 ♪ Safely to the ground 42 00:06:46,928 --> 00:06:53,848 ♪ I'll take this soul That's inside me now 43 00:06:55,632 --> 00:07:00,420 ♪ Like a brand new friend 44 00:07:00,463 --> 00:07:03,205 ♪ I'll forever know 45 00:07:04,511 --> 00:07:09,037 ♪ I've got this light 46 00:07:09,080 --> 00:07:13,476 ♪ And the will to show 47 00:07:13,520 --> 00:07:17,959 ♪ I will always be 48 00:07:18,002 --> 00:07:21,658 ♪ Better than before 49 00:07:21,702 --> 00:07:28,448 ♪ Long nights allow me to feel 50 00:07:28,491 --> 00:07:32,103 ♪ I'm falling I am falling 51 00:07:32,147 --> 00:07:35,803 ♪ The lights go out 52 00:07:35,846 --> 00:07:39,067 ♪ Let me feel I'm falling 53 00:07:39,110 --> 00:07:40,764 ♪ I am falling 54 00:07:40,808 --> 00:07:47,597 ♪ Safely to the ground 55 00:08:41,956 --> 00:08:44,393 [PANTING] 56 00:09:01,323 --> 00:09:02,716 Hello? 57 00:10:08,259 --> 00:10:11,872 Is there anybody here? 58 00:10:14,831 --> 00:10:16,137 Guess not! 59 00:10:18,095 --> 00:10:22,491 [HOWLING] 60 00:10:42,293 --> 00:10:45,122 [GROANING] 61 00:10:45,166 --> 00:10:47,037 [SIGHING] 62 00:11:24,771 --> 00:11:27,034 Two years he walks the earth. 63 00:11:33,867 --> 00:11:37,871 No phone, no pool, no pets, 64 00:11:37,914 --> 00:11:39,176 no cigarettes. 65 00:11:56,498 --> 00:11:58,456 Ultimate freedom. 66 00:12:00,067 --> 00:12:04,767 An extremist. An aesthetic voyager 67 00:12:04,811 --> 00:12:06,116 [CLEARING THROAT] 68 00:12:06,160 --> 00:12:11,034 whose home is the road. 69 00:12:11,078 --> 00:12:12,166 "Hey, listen, old man. 70 00:12:12,209 --> 00:12:14,821 "Now, don't psychoanalyze me, all right? 71 00:12:14,864 --> 00:12:17,475 "Shut up. I'm taking you out to where we're going." 72 00:12:17,519 --> 00:12:19,086 "Where you going?" 73 00:12:19,129 --> 00:12:22,045 "I told you. We're going nowhere!" 74 00:12:24,526 --> 00:12:27,790 So now, after two rambling years 75 00:12:27,834 --> 00:12:30,706 comes the final and greatest adventure. 76 00:12:31,838 --> 00:12:35,102 The climactic battle to kill 77 00:12:36,320 --> 00:12:38,148 the false being within 78 00:12:39,802 --> 00:12:43,197 and victoriously conclude the spiritual revolution. 79 00:13:08,222 --> 00:13:10,659 [EXCLAIMING] 80 00:13:13,009 --> 00:13:18,319 No longer to be poisoned by civilization, he flees, 81 00:13:18,362 --> 00:13:21,539 and walks alone upon the land to become 82 00:13:22,845 --> 00:13:24,542 lost in the wild. 83 00:13:27,241 --> 00:13:30,113 Alexander Supertramp. 84 00:13:30,157 --> 00:13:32,681 May 1992. 85 00:13:36,598 --> 00:13:38,730 [PLAYING MARCH] 86 00:13:55,704 --> 00:13:58,838 MAN ON PA: ...hard work and manifold contributions 87 00:13:58,881 --> 00:14:01,884 to our community during their time here, 88 00:14:01,928 --> 00:14:05,148 we salute you and offer all of you 89 00:14:05,192 --> 00:14:08,630 one more round of applause and congratulations. 90 00:14:15,376 --> 00:14:18,161 Nina Lynn Lockwynn. 91 00:14:19,206 --> 00:14:20,511 [AUDIENCE APPLAUDING] 92 00:14:20,555 --> 00:14:22,949 [INAUDIBLE] 93 00:14:22,992 --> 00:14:26,213 Vanessa Denise Lowery. 94 00:14:30,347 --> 00:14:34,177 Christopher Johnson McCandless. 95 00:14:34,221 --> 00:14:36,353 [AUDIENCE APPLAUDING] 96 00:14:36,397 --> 00:14:38,747 [STUDENTS CHEERING] 97 00:14:45,145 --> 00:14:48,409 Regina Victoria McNabb. 98 00:15:11,127 --> 00:15:15,262 CHRIS: I see them standing at the formal gates of their colleges. 99 00:15:18,047 --> 00:15:22,704 I see my father strolling out under the ochre sandstone arch, 100 00:15:22,747 --> 00:15:27,752 the red tiles glinting like bent plates of blood behind his head. 101 00:15:27,796 --> 00:15:30,233 I see my mother with a few light books at her hip, 102 00:15:30,277 --> 00:15:34,281 standing at the pillar made of tiny bricks with the wrought-iron gates 103 00:15:34,324 --> 00:15:38,720 still open behind her, its sword-tips black in the May air. 104 00:15:39,634 --> 00:15:41,810 They are about to graduate. 105 00:15:42,985 --> 00:15:45,031 They are about to get married. 106 00:15:45,074 --> 00:15:48,077 They are kids. They are dumb. 107 00:15:48,121 --> 00:15:50,166 All they know is they are innocent, 108 00:15:50,210 --> 00:15:52,299 they would never hurt anybody. 109 00:15:54,344 --> 00:15:58,261 I want to go up to them and say, "Stop, don't do it. 110 00:15:58,305 --> 00:16:02,004 "She's the wrong woman, he's the wrong man. 111 00:16:02,048 --> 00:16:06,356 "You are going to do things you cannot imagine you would ever do. 112 00:16:06,400 --> 00:16:09,490 "You are going to do bad things to children. 113 00:16:09,533 --> 00:16:12,275 "You are going to suffer in ways you never heard of. 114 00:16:12,319 --> 00:16:14,451 "You are going to want to die." 115 00:16:16,801 --> 00:16:21,241 I want to go up to them there in the late May sunlight and say it. 116 00:16:21,284 --> 00:16:24,418 But I don't do it. I want to live. 117 00:16:26,333 --> 00:16:29,031 I take them up like the male and female paper dolls, 118 00:16:29,075 --> 00:16:32,513 and bang them together at the hips like chips of flint, 119 00:16:32,556 --> 00:16:35,777 as if to strike sparks from them. I say, 120 00:16:37,083 --> 00:16:41,522 "Do what you are going to do and I will tell about it." 121 00:16:42,784 --> 00:16:46,309 Here they are, Walt. Okay? 122 00:16:46,353 --> 00:16:48,268 Who wrote that? 123 00:16:48,311 --> 00:16:53,012 Well, could have been either one of us, couldn't it? 124 00:16:53,055 --> 00:16:56,319 Why is he letting Carine drive his car? 125 00:16:56,363 --> 00:16:59,235 There's a lot of great poems in here. 126 00:17:04,066 --> 00:17:06,373 WALT: I have to speak to her about it. 127 00:17:06,416 --> 00:17:08,027 Sit down. 128 00:17:08,070 --> 00:17:10,029 Excuse me. I'm going to get my son. 129 00:17:10,072 --> 00:17:13,075 He just graduated today from Emory College. 130 00:17:13,119 --> 00:17:14,685 I'll get it. I'll get it. 131 00:17:14,729 --> 00:17:18,298 Chris, hi! We've been waiting and waiting. 132 00:17:18,341 --> 00:17:22,780 You scared me half to death jumping up there on that stage like that. 133 00:17:22,824 --> 00:17:24,260 [BILLIE LAUGHING] 134 00:17:24,304 --> 00:17:25,522 Hi, Dad. 135 00:17:25,566 --> 00:17:27,698 Congratulations, Son. This is a big step. 136 00:17:27,742 --> 00:17:30,440 Thank you, Dad. 137 00:17:30,484 --> 00:17:31,876 All right. 138 00:17:33,095 --> 00:17:34,879 You're not supposed to be driving in Georgia. 139 00:17:34,923 --> 00:17:36,446 Why? I have my permit. 140 00:17:36,490 --> 00:17:38,622 'Cause it's against the law for a learner's permit 141 00:17:38,666 --> 00:17:41,843 to drive in another state from one's home state. That's why. 142 00:17:41,886 --> 00:17:44,541 I didn't know that. I thought that if I was with a legal driver 143 00:17:44,585 --> 00:17:45,542 that it'd be okay. 144 00:17:45,586 --> 00:17:46,630 BILLIE: Well, let's... 145 00:17:46,674 --> 00:17:49,242 [MEN SHOUTING] 146 00:17:56,205 --> 00:17:57,554 Are they going to continue? 147 00:17:57,598 --> 00:17:59,252 No. 148 00:18:01,428 --> 00:18:03,212 I guess everybody's celebrating today. 149 00:18:03,256 --> 00:18:04,344 [ALL LAUGHING] 150 00:18:04,387 --> 00:18:05,823 They're going to stay in the bar, right? 151 00:18:05,867 --> 00:18:06,824 That's right. 152 00:18:06,868 --> 00:18:12,482 [ALL CHANTING TEAM SLOGAN] 153 00:18:19,489 --> 00:18:23,276 My grades are good enough, I think, to get into Harvard Law. 154 00:18:23,319 --> 00:18:25,452 Chris, that's wonderful. 155 00:18:26,801 --> 00:18:29,412 That is a big deal. 156 00:18:29,456 --> 00:18:32,720 How much do you have left in the college fund? 157 00:18:32,763 --> 00:18:37,899 Exactly $24,500.68. 158 00:18:37,942 --> 00:18:39,466 Well, that's specific. 159 00:18:39,509 --> 00:18:42,469 I had to go to the bank this morning, Mom. 160 00:18:44,166 --> 00:18:45,602 Your mother and I will be glad 161 00:18:45,646 --> 00:18:48,431 to contribute the balance for Harvard. 162 00:18:48,475 --> 00:18:49,693 That's right. 163 00:18:49,737 --> 00:18:51,695 I've got to figure out what I'm going to do. 164 00:18:51,739 --> 00:18:55,134 I've got a lot of things to pack and organize here first. 165 00:18:55,177 --> 00:19:00,269 Your father and I, we want to make a present to you. 166 00:19:00,313 --> 00:19:01,792 We want to get you out of that junker. 167 00:19:01,836 --> 00:19:03,577 Mmm-hmm. 168 00:19:03,620 --> 00:19:05,448 What junker? 169 00:19:05,492 --> 00:19:06,623 That. 170 00:19:09,148 --> 00:19:11,411 We want to buy you a new car. 171 00:19:11,454 --> 00:19:12,586 That's right. 172 00:19:12,629 --> 00:19:13,630 A new car? 173 00:19:13,674 --> 00:19:14,936 BILLIE: Mmm-hmm. 174 00:19:16,242 --> 00:19:21,290 Why would I want a new car? Datsun runs great. 175 00:19:22,509 --> 00:19:25,512 Do you think I want some fancy boat? 176 00:19:27,253 --> 00:19:30,343 Are you worried what the neighbors might think? 177 00:19:30,386 --> 00:19:32,693 Well, we weren't gonna get you a brand new Cadillac, Chris. 178 00:19:32,736 --> 00:19:36,479 We just want to get you a nice new car that's safe to drive. 179 00:19:36,523 --> 00:19:40,440 And you never know when that thing out there just might blow up. 180 00:19:40,483 --> 00:19:44,139 Blow up. Blow up? 181 00:19:44,183 --> 00:19:46,924 Are you guys crazy? It's a great car. 182 00:19:46,968 --> 00:19:49,188 I don't need a new car. 183 00:19:49,231 --> 00:19:51,668 I don't want a new car. 184 00:19:51,712 --> 00:19:52,800 I don't want anything. 185 00:19:52,843 --> 00:19:54,105 BILLIE: Okay. 186 00:19:54,149 --> 00:19:56,456 These things, things, things, things. 187 00:19:56,499 --> 00:19:57,674 BILLIE: Okay. 188 00:19:57,718 --> 00:19:59,633 Everything has to be difficult.Thank you. 189 00:19:59,676 --> 00:20:01,330 Thank you. 190 00:20:01,374 --> 00:20:03,463 Maybe that's not what he means. Maybe he just wants his old car. 191 00:20:03,506 --> 00:20:05,465 It's not such a big deal. 192 00:20:07,554 --> 00:20:10,426 Thank you. I just don't want anything. 193 00:20:14,865 --> 00:20:15,997 [GRUNTING] 194 00:20:19,566 --> 00:20:22,221 CARINE: Chris measured himself and those around him 195 00:20:22,264 --> 00:20:24,701 by a fiercely rigorous moral code. 196 00:20:24,745 --> 00:20:26,442 Bye, Chris! 197 00:20:26,486 --> 00:20:29,228 He risked what could have been a relentlessly lonely path 198 00:20:29,271 --> 00:20:33,406 but found company in the characters of the books he loved 199 00:20:35,669 --> 00:20:40,151 from writers like Tolstoy, Jack London and Thoreau. 200 00:20:41,631 --> 00:20:45,722 He could summon their words to suit any occasion, 201 00:20:45,766 --> 00:20:47,507 and he often would. 202 00:21:02,609 --> 00:21:05,307 I forgot to ask what quote he'd have picked 203 00:21:05,351 --> 00:21:07,483 for his graduation dinner, 204 00:21:07,527 --> 00:21:11,400 but I had a good idea of who the primary target would be. 205 00:21:16,318 --> 00:21:19,452 It was inevitable that Chris would break away. 206 00:21:21,280 --> 00:21:22,890 And when he did, 207 00:21:22,933 --> 00:21:26,154 he would do it with characteristic immoderation. 208 00:21:40,299 --> 00:21:42,779 ♪ When I walk beside her 209 00:21:42,823 --> 00:21:46,609 ♪ I am a better man 210 00:21:46,653 --> 00:21:49,351 ♪ When I look to leave her 211 00:21:49,395 --> 00:21:53,442 ♪ I always stagger back again 212 00:21:53,486 --> 00:21:55,749 ♪ Once I built an Ivory Tower 213 00:21:55,792 --> 00:21:59,405 ♪ So I could worship from above 214 00:21:59,448 --> 00:22:03,322 ♪ When I climbed down to be set free 215 00:22:03,365 --> 00:22:05,846 ♪ She took me in again 216 00:22:05,889 --> 00:22:11,417 ♪ There's a big A big hard sun 217 00:22:11,460 --> 00:22:13,549 CHRIS: "It should not be denied that being footloose 218 00:22:13,593 --> 00:22:15,812 "has always exhilarated us. 219 00:22:17,248 --> 00:22:19,729 "It is associated in our minds with escape 220 00:22:21,818 --> 00:22:24,734 "from history and oppression and law and irksome obligations. 221 00:22:26,127 --> 00:22:28,129 "Absolute freedom. 222 00:22:29,913 --> 00:22:32,742 "And the road has always led west." 223 00:22:32,786 --> 00:22:38,661 ♪ There's a big A big hard sun 224 00:22:38,705 --> 00:22:42,099 ♪ Beating on the big people 225 00:22:42,143 --> 00:22:46,495 ♪ In a big hard world 226 00:24:32,993 --> 00:24:34,560 I need a name. 227 00:24:56,495 --> 00:25:02,326 ♪ I'm going up the country Baby, don't you wanna go? 228 00:25:02,370 --> 00:25:03,632 ♪ I'm going up the country 229 00:25:03,676 --> 00:25:05,460 CARINE: Toward the end of June, 230 00:25:05,504 --> 00:25:09,246 Emory had mailed our parents Chris' final grade report. 231 00:25:09,290 --> 00:25:11,031 Almost all A's. 232 00:25:11,074 --> 00:25:14,730 A in Apartheid in South African Society. 233 00:25:14,774 --> 00:25:17,516 A-minus in Contemporary African Politics 234 00:25:17,559 --> 00:25:20,083 and the Food Crisis in Africa. 235 00:25:20,127 --> 00:25:23,783 And on it went. Clever boy, my brother. 236 00:25:25,698 --> 00:25:28,875 But by the end of July, we hadn't heard anything from him 237 00:25:28,918 --> 00:25:31,704 and my parents were becoming unsettled. 238 00:25:33,183 --> 00:25:35,577 Chris had never had a phone, 239 00:25:35,621 --> 00:25:39,320 so they decided to drive down to Atlanta and surprise him. 240 00:25:49,548 --> 00:25:53,900 ♪ I'm gonna leave this city Got to get away ♪ 241 00:25:53,943 --> 00:25:55,641 CARINE: When they arrived at the apartment, 242 00:25:55,684 --> 00:25:57,817 there was a "For Rent" sign up 243 00:25:57,860 --> 00:26:00,646 and the manager said that Chris had moved out at the end of May. 244 00:26:00,689 --> 00:26:03,039 Oh, yes. He left two months ago. 245 00:26:03,083 --> 00:26:04,867 So when they got home, 246 00:26:04,911 --> 00:26:06,739 I had to hand them all the letters 247 00:26:06,782 --> 00:26:09,698 that they had sent Chris that summer, 248 00:26:09,742 --> 00:26:13,876 which had been returned in a bundle. 249 00:26:13,920 --> 00:26:16,183 Chris had arranged for the post office 250 00:26:16,226 --> 00:26:18,228 to hold them until August 1st, 251 00:26:18,272 --> 00:26:21,362 to buy himself some time. 252 00:26:22,276 --> 00:26:24,974 WALT: Did you know about this? 253 00:26:25,018 --> 00:26:27,150 He didn't say anything. 254 00:26:27,194 --> 00:26:29,109 CARINE: I understood what he was doing. 255 00:26:29,152 --> 00:26:31,372 That he had spent four years 256 00:26:31,415 --> 00:26:35,332 fulfilling the absurd and tedious duty of graduating from college, 257 00:26:37,552 --> 00:26:42,035 and now he was emancipated from that world of abstraction, 258 00:26:42,078 --> 00:26:45,908 false security, parents and material excess, 259 00:26:45,952 --> 00:26:48,084 [BILLIE LAUGHING] 260 00:26:48,128 --> 00:26:51,784 the things that cut Chris off from the truth of his existence. 261 00:27:29,343 --> 00:27:31,954 [AIRPLANE WHOOSHING] 262 00:28:06,162 --> 00:28:07,207 Hey! 263 00:28:11,037 --> 00:28:12,995 RAINEY: Hey, man. Step around. Jump in. 264 00:28:13,039 --> 00:28:14,605 Okay, great. 265 00:28:14,649 --> 00:28:17,870 We barely saw you there underneath that crazy hat of yours. 266 00:28:17,913 --> 00:28:21,874 This door's a little tricky. There you go. Hop in. 267 00:28:25,573 --> 00:28:26,748 That's Rainey. 268 00:28:26,792 --> 00:28:28,358 Hi, Rainey.Yeah, I'm Rainey. 269 00:28:28,402 --> 00:28:29,751 I'm Jan.Hi. I'm Alex. 270 00:28:29,795 --> 00:28:31,231 Alex with the hat on. 271 00:28:31,274 --> 00:28:33,624 JAN: Yeah, I know. You said it, man.CHRIS: Yeah. 272 00:28:35,409 --> 00:28:37,498 So you're a leather now. 273 00:28:38,717 --> 00:28:39,761 I'm a leather? 274 00:28:39,805 --> 00:28:41,850 Yeah, a leather tramp. 275 00:28:41,894 --> 00:28:45,724 That's what they call the ones that hoof it, go on foot. 276 00:28:45,767 --> 00:28:48,117 Technically we're rubber tramps. 277 00:28:48,161 --> 00:28:49,466 Because we have a vehicle. 278 00:28:49,510 --> 00:28:51,251 [CHUCKLING] 279 00:28:51,294 --> 00:28:52,731 You don't have to push me away. 280 00:28:52,774 --> 00:28:54,515 Come on, please? 281 00:28:55,951 --> 00:28:57,953 Yeah, Alex could have a vehicle as well, 282 00:28:57,997 --> 00:29:01,522 but he decided to burn all of his money. 283 00:29:03,437 --> 00:29:05,569 And why did you do that? 284 00:29:07,267 --> 00:29:09,225 I don't need money. 285 00:29:09,269 --> 00:29:10,923 Makes people cautious. 286 00:29:12,794 --> 00:29:15,231 Come on, Alex. You gotta be a little cautious. 287 00:29:15,275 --> 00:29:18,844 I mean, that book of yours is cool and everything, 288 00:29:18,887 --> 00:29:22,064 but you can't depend entirely on leaves and berries. 289 00:29:23,805 --> 00:29:27,504 I don't know if you want to depend on much more than that. 290 00:29:27,548 --> 00:29:29,942 Where are your mom and dad? 291 00:29:32,814 --> 00:29:35,034 Living their lives somewhere. 292 00:29:37,906 --> 00:29:40,604 You look like a loved kid. Be fair. 293 00:29:41,562 --> 00:29:42,955 Fair? 294 00:29:43,825 --> 00:29:45,653 You know what I mean. 295 00:29:48,569 --> 00:29:50,963 I'll paraphrase Thoreau here. 296 00:29:52,181 --> 00:29:56,272 "Rather than love, than money, than faith, 297 00:29:56,316 --> 00:30:00,276 "than fame, than fairness, 298 00:30:02,801 --> 00:30:04,280 "give me truth." 299 00:30:14,290 --> 00:30:16,597 [TENT UNZIPPING] 300 00:30:25,606 --> 00:30:28,870 CARINE: From as long ago as Chris and I could remember, 301 00:30:28,914 --> 00:30:32,047 there have been daily bouts of rage in our house. 302 00:30:32,091 --> 00:30:37,313 Violence that we were forced to witness. It was very real. 303 00:30:37,357 --> 00:30:38,532 [PEOPLE CHATTERING] 304 00:30:38,575 --> 00:30:41,230 But it was also like theater. 305 00:30:42,884 --> 00:30:46,235 They cast us as both judges and the accused. 306 00:30:46,279 --> 00:30:52,981 And I got you this token, this expensive token. 307 00:30:53,025 --> 00:30:55,114 CARINE: Dad had been the young genius 308 00:30:55,157 --> 00:30:57,246 that NASA enlisted to do crucial designs 309 00:30:57,290 --> 00:31:00,032 for the American satellite radar systems 310 00:31:00,075 --> 00:31:04,645 that would be our answer to the Russian Sputnik. 311 00:31:04,688 --> 00:31:07,169 And Mom and he later started up a consulting firm 312 00:31:07,213 --> 00:31:10,869 combining her get-up-and-go resourcefulness 313 00:31:10,912 --> 00:31:12,522 with his wealth of knowledge. 314 00:31:12,566 --> 00:31:14,960 Look at this. 315 00:31:17,701 --> 00:31:21,705 But by the time the company actually made its first million, 316 00:31:21,749 --> 00:31:27,363 the careerism and money seemed only to embolden their blindness. 317 00:31:27,407 --> 00:31:29,278 Thank you very, very much. 318 00:31:30,758 --> 00:31:33,065 I remember the first family meeting 319 00:31:33,108 --> 00:31:37,199 to let us in on their plans for getting a divorce. 320 00:31:37,243 --> 00:31:41,073 They wanted us to choose which of them we'd live with. 321 00:31:42,944 --> 00:31:44,815 We cried our eyes out. 322 00:31:46,948 --> 00:31:49,733 The divorce never happened, 323 00:31:49,777 --> 00:31:53,128 but the battles and the meetings never stopped. 324 00:31:54,695 --> 00:31:57,393 It wasn't very long before Chris and I shut off. 325 00:31:59,134 --> 00:32:02,094 We'd say "Go ahead. 326 00:32:03,573 --> 00:32:05,401 "Get the divorce." 327 00:32:05,445 --> 00:32:06,663 [LAUGHING] 328 00:32:06,707 --> 00:32:08,927 Jeez. If I struck a match to you 329 00:32:08,970 --> 00:32:11,407 I'd have dinner and warmth at the same time. 330 00:32:12,669 --> 00:32:14,367 Where's Jan going? 331 00:32:16,978 --> 00:32:18,675 Well, my friend, 332 00:32:20,025 --> 00:32:22,723 all is not well on the hippie front. 333 00:32:29,469 --> 00:32:30,731 [SIGHING] 334 00:32:32,167 --> 00:32:35,388 You're an industrious little fucker, aren't you? 335 00:32:36,476 --> 00:32:37,868 Little bit. 336 00:32:43,004 --> 00:32:47,400 It's funny how things happen at particular times. 337 00:32:49,228 --> 00:32:52,883 I've loved that woman for a lot of years, bro. 338 00:32:55,756 --> 00:32:59,194 But, you know, she's got a story. 339 00:32:59,238 --> 00:33:03,764 We've been going through this thing, real quiet. 340 00:33:06,158 --> 00:33:10,466 So when we ran into you yesterday, 341 00:33:10,510 --> 00:33:14,209 this thing that we've been going through real quiet, 342 00:33:15,471 --> 00:33:18,431 she's talking about it. You know what I mean? 343 00:33:18,474 --> 00:33:19,475 I think I do. 344 00:33:19,519 --> 00:33:21,086 You think what? 345 00:33:24,524 --> 00:33:25,481 Well... 346 00:33:28,354 --> 00:33:32,749 Some people feel like they don't deserve love. 347 00:33:32,793 --> 00:33:37,319 They walk away quietly into empty spaces, 348 00:33:38,799 --> 00:33:42,063 trying to close the gaps to the past. 349 00:33:42,107 --> 00:33:45,327 That's a hell of an insight. Jesus! 350 00:33:48,156 --> 00:33:49,766 You're not Jesus, are you? 351 00:33:49,810 --> 00:33:51,377 Look who's talking. 352 00:33:51,420 --> 00:33:56,686 You gonna walk across the water and get her back for me, pal? 353 00:33:56,730 --> 00:34:01,039 No. I'm afraid of water. 354 00:34:01,082 --> 00:34:02,823 Always have been. 355 00:34:02,866 --> 00:34:05,478 Something I've gotta get over sometime though, huh? 356 00:34:05,521 --> 00:34:09,090 So I will swim in it 357 00:34:09,134 --> 00:34:12,137 if you'll carry the firewood back to camp. 358 00:34:14,226 --> 00:34:16,054 Shit, yeah.Yeah? 359 00:34:16,097 --> 00:34:17,359 Call it carried. 360 00:34:17,403 --> 00:34:18,534 All right. 361 00:34:53,221 --> 00:34:56,224 CHRIS: "The sea's only gifts are harsh blows, 362 00:34:59,532 --> 00:35:03,275 "and, occasionally, the chance to feel strong. 363 00:35:03,318 --> 00:35:07,453 "Now, I don't know much about the sea, 364 00:35:07,496 --> 00:35:10,891 "but I do know that that's the way it is here. 365 00:35:12,284 --> 00:35:14,590 "And I also know how important it is in life 366 00:35:14,634 --> 00:35:18,986 "not necessarily to be strong, but to feel strong, 367 00:35:20,248 --> 00:35:22,598 "to measure yourself at least once, 368 00:35:24,818 --> 00:35:28,909 "to find yourself at least once in the most ancient of human conditions, 369 00:35:30,302 --> 00:35:33,218 "facing the blind, deaf stone alone 370 00:35:33,261 --> 00:35:37,918 "with nothing to help you but your hands and your own head." 371 00:35:43,663 --> 00:35:45,665 There's a big wave coming! 372 00:35:45,708 --> 00:35:47,449 [SHOUTING] 373 00:35:48,929 --> 00:35:52,150 Rainey, I'm freezing! 374 00:35:52,193 --> 00:35:53,934 Could you put your arms around me? 375 00:35:53,977 --> 00:35:55,327 RAINEY: Oh! 376 00:35:55,370 --> 00:35:57,416 [JAN GIGGLING] 377 00:36:18,132 --> 00:36:22,484 The Navy bulldozed and abandoned this base down there, 378 00:36:22,528 --> 00:36:25,879 and all that's left is this huge grid 379 00:36:25,922 --> 00:36:30,666 of concrete foundations, or slabs. 380 00:36:30,710 --> 00:36:32,494 Man, you would dig the Slabs. 381 00:36:32,538 --> 00:36:35,758 You would like it. You would like it. If you're on the road still. 382 00:36:35,802 --> 00:36:36,846 JAN: You'd love it. 383 00:36:36,890 --> 00:36:38,370 Fellow travelers. 384 00:36:38,413 --> 00:36:41,199 Just living on the cheap under the sun. Can't beat it. 385 00:36:41,242 --> 00:36:42,504 CHRIS: Sounds good. 386 00:36:42,548 --> 00:36:45,507 If you come, I'll make you a proper hat. 387 00:36:45,551 --> 00:36:46,552 Promise? 388 00:36:46,595 --> 00:36:47,596 I swear to God. 389 00:36:55,996 --> 00:36:58,520 RAINEY: Oh, baby. Baby. 390 00:36:58,564 --> 00:36:59,391 [JAN GIGGLING] 391 00:36:59,434 --> 00:37:01,567 JAN: Stop it. Wait.Yeah. 392 00:37:02,872 --> 00:37:04,700 [RAINEY LAUGHING] 393 00:37:04,744 --> 00:37:05,832 Oh, yes. 394 00:37:05,875 --> 00:37:06,963 Okay. 395 00:37:07,007 --> 00:37:08,530 [SHUSHING] 396 00:37:08,574 --> 00:37:10,663 Let me turn off the light. Oh. 397 00:37:52,313 --> 00:37:54,881 He reminded me of... 398 00:37:54,924 --> 00:37:57,057 I know. 399 00:38:05,457 --> 00:38:08,764 ♪ Such is the way of the world 400 00:38:08,808 --> 00:38:13,595 ♪ You can never know 401 00:38:13,639 --> 00:38:16,903 ♪ Just where to put all your faith 402 00:38:16,946 --> 00:38:20,210 ♪ And how will it grow? 403 00:38:21,429 --> 00:38:24,302 ♪ Gonna rise up 404 00:38:24,345 --> 00:38:29,742 ♪ Burning back holes in dark memories 405 00:38:29,785 --> 00:38:32,440 ♪ Gonna rise up 406 00:38:32,484 --> 00:38:36,575 ♪ Turning mistakes into gold 407 00:38:36,618 --> 00:38:40,579 I mean, you're really good. I mean, you're like 408 00:38:42,015 --> 00:38:46,672 100,000 times better than, like, any apple I've ever had. 409 00:38:48,413 --> 00:38:50,806 I'm not Superman, I'm Supertramp. 410 00:38:52,982 --> 00:38:54,941 You're Superapple. 411 00:38:54,984 --> 00:38:56,377 You're so tasty. 412 00:38:56,421 --> 00:39:01,774 You're so organic, so natural. 413 00:39:02,905 --> 00:39:05,125 You're the apple of my eye. 414 00:39:07,388 --> 00:39:10,826 ♪ Hey! Such is the passage of time 415 00:39:10,870 --> 00:39:13,525 ♪ Too fast to fold 416 00:39:15,570 --> 00:39:18,704 ♪ And suddenly swallowed by signs 417 00:39:18,747 --> 00:39:22,142 ♪ Lo and behold 418 00:39:23,361 --> 00:39:25,667 ♪ Gonna rise up 419 00:39:25,711 --> 00:39:31,107 ♪ Find my direction magnetically 420 00:39:31,151 --> 00:39:33,675 ♪ Gonna rise up 421 00:39:33,719 --> 00:39:38,680 ♪ Throw down my ace in the hole ♪ 422 00:39:40,465 --> 00:39:42,423 CARINE: In early September, 423 00:39:42,467 --> 00:39:44,773 Mom and Dad got a call from the Annandale police 424 00:39:44,817 --> 00:39:46,862 notifying them that Chris' abandoned car 425 00:39:46,906 --> 00:39:50,997 had been identified by the Arizona Highway Patrol. 426 00:39:51,040 --> 00:39:52,520 A group of rare flower hunters 427 00:39:52,564 --> 00:39:54,740 stumbled upon it in the desert. 428 00:39:56,568 --> 00:39:59,919 There were no signs that Chris had intended to return to it. 429 00:39:59,962 --> 00:40:03,575 But there wasn't any evidence of struggle, either. 430 00:40:05,185 --> 00:40:07,666 The police thought Chris had chosen to leave it behind 431 00:40:07,709 --> 00:40:10,582 and not that it was taken from him. 432 00:40:13,976 --> 00:40:18,590 The initial comfort that gave Mom and Dad quickly turned 433 00:40:18,633 --> 00:40:23,856 to the realization that Chris was actually trying not to be found. 434 00:41:05,027 --> 00:41:06,594 Strong. 435 00:41:07,552 --> 00:41:09,205 You can do anything. 436 00:41:09,249 --> 00:41:11,686 You can go anywhere. 437 00:41:12,687 --> 00:41:17,953 Money, power is an illusion. 438 00:41:17,997 --> 00:41:19,302 It's up here. 439 00:41:20,521 --> 00:41:22,001 You can be here. 440 00:41:23,132 --> 00:41:25,613 Me and you. 441 00:41:25,657 --> 00:41:26,658 [GUN FIRING] 442 00:41:40,149 --> 00:41:44,806 One, two. No, no, no. 443 00:41:52,684 --> 00:41:53,946 Two, 444 00:41:58,690 --> 00:41:59,691 three... 445 00:42:50,742 --> 00:42:52,395 WAYNE: Don't be shy with it. Get it moving there. 446 00:42:52,439 --> 00:42:54,963 That's good. That's your speed right here. 447 00:42:55,007 --> 00:42:56,399 CHRIS: Right. 448 00:42:56,443 --> 00:42:58,532 You go too fast, you won't get all the wheat. 449 00:42:58,576 --> 00:43:01,448 That's it, straight line, straight line, little straighter. 450 00:43:01,491 --> 00:43:05,017 See how you're bearing? Just a little straighter. Now you're a combiner. 451 00:43:05,060 --> 00:43:06,975 Wow, look at this view! 452 00:43:07,019 --> 00:43:09,674 But keep your eye on the wheat, here. Make sure you're cutting it. 453 00:43:09,717 --> 00:43:13,242 You can look back here and see how much is coming out, all right. 454 00:43:13,286 --> 00:43:14,896 How do you feel?I feel great. 455 00:43:14,940 --> 00:43:17,986 Okay, keep it straight. God bless you. 456 00:43:18,030 --> 00:43:19,640 Make yourself some money, my friend. 457 00:43:19,684 --> 00:43:20,902 I'll see you in a little bit. 458 00:43:20,946 --> 00:43:21,860 Okay. 459 00:43:28,344 --> 00:43:32,392 Wayne. Where you going? 460 00:43:50,932 --> 00:43:53,543 Kevin, you know I love you. 461 00:43:53,587 --> 00:43:56,634 I'm joking with you. I'm joking. Stop it. I'm joking with you. 462 00:43:56,677 --> 00:43:58,592 Mind your own business, Wayne! 463 00:43:58,636 --> 00:44:00,072 What are you getting so hostile for? 464 00:44:00,115 --> 00:44:02,161 I don't know.Me and you are on the same side. 465 00:44:02,204 --> 00:44:03,510 We're on the same side. 466 00:44:03,553 --> 00:44:04,946 I'm just tired of the teasing a lot. 467 00:44:04,990 --> 00:44:06,687 Kevin, we're on the same side. 468 00:44:06,731 --> 00:44:09,211 Let me get some... If I want some vagina, let me get it. 469 00:44:09,255 --> 00:44:11,170 [MEN LAUGHING] 470 00:44:11,213 --> 00:44:13,912 MAN: Whoa. He's serious about this.WAYNE: Let's just play cards. 471 00:44:13,955 --> 00:44:15,435 Can we just play cards?Let's go, then. 472 00:44:15,478 --> 00:44:18,656 $2, $4, $6, just put all the money in. 473 00:44:18,699 --> 00:44:20,266 I just wanna see everybody going for broke. 474 00:44:20,309 --> 00:44:21,310 You want to play? 475 00:44:21,354 --> 00:44:22,398 No. 476 00:44:22,442 --> 00:44:23,573 [ALL LAUGHING] 477 00:44:37,892 --> 00:44:39,981 Kevin, what have you got for the week?I got 260. 478 00:44:40,025 --> 00:44:41,113 We're at 260. 479 00:44:47,989 --> 00:44:50,165 We're gonna stay right at 260, that's our number. 480 00:44:50,209 --> 00:44:51,863 We've got 20,000 pounds. 481 00:44:51,906 --> 00:44:54,474 We've got 20,000 pounds we need to get rid of. 482 00:44:58,608 --> 00:44:59,871 WAYNE: Maybe just do all that after lunch 483 00:44:59,914 --> 00:45:03,178 before we get back into everything else. 484 00:45:03,222 --> 00:45:06,791 Can we do the $500 reserves... 485 00:45:15,060 --> 00:45:18,454 What do you think about all this? 486 00:45:18,498 --> 00:45:20,195 I like all this. 487 00:45:27,246 --> 00:45:29,204 ♪ Now it's just you 488 00:45:29,248 --> 00:45:32,251 ♪ Thought I was you That's what everybody ♪ 489 00:45:32,294 --> 00:45:34,819 I don't think he can do it. 490 00:45:35,776 --> 00:45:37,735 [PEOPLE CHATTERING] 491 00:45:37,778 --> 00:45:39,737 Is there a library or bookstore around here 492 00:45:39,780 --> 00:45:41,521 where I can get books on hunting and preserving? 493 00:45:41,564 --> 00:45:44,002 Anything at all to do with hunting or preserving the meat, 494 00:45:44,045 --> 00:45:46,091 smoking it, whatever the hell it is, 495 00:45:46,134 --> 00:45:49,268 talk to Kevin over there. That's your man. 496 00:45:49,311 --> 00:45:52,793 Outdoorsman. What's your fascination with all that stuff? 497 00:45:52,837 --> 00:45:54,795 I'm going to Alaska. 498 00:45:54,839 --> 00:45:57,798 Alaska, Alaska? Or city Alaska? 499 00:45:57,842 --> 00:46:00,192 Because they do have markets in Alaska. 500 00:46:00,235 --> 00:46:01,889 The city of Alaska. Not in Alaska. 501 00:46:01,933 --> 00:46:03,761 In the city of Alaska, they have markets. 502 00:46:03,804 --> 00:46:07,242 No, man. Alaska, Alaska. 503 00:46:07,286 --> 00:46:11,116 I'm gonna be all the way out there, all the way fucking out there. 504 00:46:11,159 --> 00:46:13,118 Just on my own. 505 00:46:13,161 --> 00:46:18,863 You know, no fucking watch, no map, no ax, no nothing. No nothing. 506 00:46:18,906 --> 00:46:21,779 Just be out there. Just be out there in it. 507 00:46:21,822 --> 00:46:26,044 You know, big mountains, rivers, sky, game. 508 00:46:26,087 --> 00:46:30,265 Just be out there in it, you know? In the wild. 509 00:46:30,309 --> 00:46:31,832 In the wild.Just wild. 510 00:46:31,876 --> 00:46:33,094 Yeah.Just... 511 00:46:33,138 --> 00:46:34,139 [GROWLING] 512 00:46:34,182 --> 00:46:35,749 What are you doing when we're there? 513 00:46:35,793 --> 00:46:37,795 Now you're in the wild, what are we doing? 514 00:46:37,838 --> 00:46:38,926 You're just living, man. 515 00:46:38,970 --> 00:46:40,798 You're just there, in that moment, 516 00:46:40,841 --> 00:46:42,277 in that special place and time. 517 00:46:42,321 --> 00:46:43,844 Yeah. 518 00:46:43,888 --> 00:46:46,455 Maybe when I get back, I can write a book about my travels. 519 00:46:46,499 --> 00:46:47,805 Why not? 520 00:46:47,848 --> 00:46:49,807 You know, about getting out of this sick society. 521 00:46:49,850 --> 00:46:51,547 [COUGHING]Society! 522 00:46:51,591 --> 00:46:53,549 Society!Society, man! 523 00:46:53,593 --> 00:46:55,856 Society!Society! Society! 524 00:46:55,900 --> 00:46:59,991 Society!Society, you know! Society! 525 00:47:00,034 --> 00:47:02,863 'Cause you know what I don't understand? 526 00:47:02,907 --> 00:47:06,911 I don't understand why people, why every fucking person 527 00:47:06,954 --> 00:47:10,001 is so bad to each other so fucking often. 528 00:47:10,044 --> 00:47:11,350 It doesn't make sense to me. 529 00:47:11,393 --> 00:47:15,571 Judgment. Control. All that, the whole spectrum. 530 00:47:15,615 --> 00:47:17,791 Well, it just... 531 00:47:17,835 --> 00:47:19,749 What "people" we talking about? 532 00:47:21,012 --> 00:47:26,582 You know, parents, hypocrites, 533 00:47:26,626 --> 00:47:30,195 politicians, pricks. 534 00:47:31,849 --> 00:47:33,894 This is a mistake. 535 00:47:33,938 --> 00:47:38,116 It's a mistake to get too deep into all that kind of stuff. 536 00:47:40,422 --> 00:47:44,035 Alex, you're a hell of a young guy, a hell of a young guy. 537 00:47:45,514 --> 00:47:47,386 But I promise you this. 538 00:47:48,517 --> 00:47:49,954 You're a young guy! 539 00:47:49,997 --> 00:47:53,566 Can't be juggling blood and fire all the time! 540 00:47:53,609 --> 00:47:55,133 You've got to just kind of... 541 00:47:55,176 --> 00:47:56,874 Wayne, what are you talking about? 542 00:47:56,917 --> 00:47:58,179 What?I mean... 543 00:47:58,223 --> 00:47:59,877 I'm talking about blood and fire. 544 00:47:59,920 --> 00:48:01,922 We're talking about trying to juggle blood and fire. 545 00:48:01,966 --> 00:48:03,837 Who are you to be giving advice to anybody anyway? 546 00:48:03,881 --> 00:48:05,186 Who am I to be giving advice to anybody? 547 00:48:05,230 --> 00:48:06,622 Yes. 548 00:48:06,666 --> 00:48:08,276 Well, it's nice to meet you. My name is Mr. Happy. 549 00:48:08,320 --> 00:48:09,451 CHRIS: Mr. Happy. 550 00:48:09,495 --> 00:48:11,192 And Mr. Happy sometimes gives advice. 551 00:48:11,236 --> 00:48:13,281 Alex, please.[LAUGHING] I'm sorry. 552 00:48:13,325 --> 00:48:16,023 Sometimes Mr. Happy... Well, Mr. Happy is always happy. 553 00:48:16,067 --> 00:48:17,416 Uh-huh.But you know when he's happiest? 554 00:48:17,459 --> 00:48:19,070 He's not always happy.When is he happy? 555 00:48:19,113 --> 00:48:20,898 Are you really gonna say that to me? 556 00:48:20,941 --> 00:48:21,942 Come on, tell me about it. 557 00:48:21,986 --> 00:48:23,726 I am going to say that to you. 558 00:48:28,688 --> 00:48:31,125 Now...Sit down before you hurt yourself. 559 00:48:31,169 --> 00:48:35,042 One thing that you should try to keep your eye on 560 00:48:35,086 --> 00:48:38,263 is what happened in the late 1940s in Roswell. 561 00:48:52,103 --> 00:48:54,235 CARINE: When a search of tax records revealed that 562 00:48:54,279 --> 00:48:57,238 Chris had given his life savings to charity, 563 00:48:57,282 --> 00:49:01,677 Mom and Dad became what Dad called "mobilized." 564 00:49:01,721 --> 00:49:03,418 They hired a private investigator 565 00:49:03,462 --> 00:49:06,552 and notified law enforcement nationwide, 566 00:49:06,595 --> 00:49:08,902 determined to track him down. 567 00:49:08,946 --> 00:49:13,820 I just figured he'd be with gypsies, far from the eyes of the law. 568 00:49:17,998 --> 00:49:20,218 These are those free satellite TV deals. 569 00:49:20,261 --> 00:49:23,351 You're the one who said it, Alex, not me. 570 00:49:25,397 --> 00:49:27,877 You're gonna need something. What kind of gun you got? 571 00:49:27,921 --> 00:49:32,621 I'm probably gonna get like a .22, I think. A .22 caliber rifle. 572 00:49:32,665 --> 00:49:34,580 [CHUCKLES] 573 00:49:34,623 --> 00:49:36,321 All right, then. 574 00:49:36,364 --> 00:49:39,237 When you get your kill, time is of the essence. 575 00:49:39,280 --> 00:49:41,369 Now, the first thing you wanna do is make sure 576 00:49:41,413 --> 00:49:44,459 that you got that meat nice and shaved up. 577 00:49:44,503 --> 00:49:45,983 And you don't have a lot of time to do this. 578 00:49:46,026 --> 00:49:47,419 This is about an hour or two. 579 00:49:47,462 --> 00:49:49,203 Depending on the weather. Especially if it's hot, 580 00:49:49,247 --> 00:49:51,205 you've got less time to do it. 581 00:49:51,249 --> 00:49:53,294 What you do is you want to make sure 582 00:49:53,338 --> 00:49:55,383 that them flies don't land on your meat. 583 00:49:55,427 --> 00:49:59,909 Because once them flies start shitting out larvae and them maggots, 584 00:49:59,953 --> 00:50:04,349 you know, those creepy crawlies, it's too late. It's too late. 585 00:51:10,632 --> 00:51:11,677 [SIREN WAILING] 586 00:51:11,720 --> 00:51:14,245 You got me. You got me. 587 00:51:19,641 --> 00:51:22,427 I warned Wayne about them little black boxes. 588 00:51:22,470 --> 00:51:24,516 Mr. Westerberg, Scott Baker, FBI. 589 00:51:24,559 --> 00:51:26,213 I think you know why we're here. 590 00:51:26,257 --> 00:51:28,389 Impressive turn-out.Yeah. 591 00:51:28,433 --> 00:51:31,827 You mind grabbing that zipper for me there? Thank you. 592 00:51:31,871 --> 00:51:33,525 Let's go.Sorry, boys. 593 00:51:33,568 --> 00:51:35,614 We're gonna have to shut down for a little while. 594 00:51:35,657 --> 00:51:38,530 Alex, you come back and work for me any time you want. 595 00:51:38,573 --> 00:51:41,402 Gil's got your checks, guys. I shouldn't be away too long. 596 00:51:41,446 --> 00:51:44,318 Remember Alex, no Alaska till spring. 597 00:51:44,362 --> 00:51:46,973 South, kid. You wanna head south. 598 00:52:12,172 --> 00:52:14,392 CARINE: The year Chris graduated high school, 599 00:52:14,435 --> 00:52:18,004 he bought the Datsun used and drove it cross-country. 600 00:52:19,223 --> 00:52:21,660 He stayed away most of the summer. 601 00:52:21,703 --> 00:52:24,619 Come on. The neighbors are gonna be watching, honey. 602 00:52:24,663 --> 00:52:26,404 CARINE: Can you spray it? 603 00:52:31,278 --> 00:52:33,280 As soon as I heard he was home, 604 00:52:33,324 --> 00:52:35,630 I ran into his room to talk to him. 605 00:52:40,026 --> 00:52:44,465 In California, he'd looked up some old family friends. 606 00:52:44,509 --> 00:52:46,293 He discovered that our parents' stories 607 00:52:46,337 --> 00:52:49,427 of how they fell in love and got married 608 00:52:49,470 --> 00:52:52,473 were calculated lies masking an ugly truth. 609 00:52:53,779 --> 00:52:57,174 When they met, Dad was already married. 610 00:52:57,217 --> 00:52:59,480 And even after Chris was born, 611 00:52:59,524 --> 00:53:02,527 Dad had had another son with his first wife, Marcia, 612 00:53:03,702 --> 00:53:06,531 to whom he was still legally married. 613 00:53:08,446 --> 00:53:13,668 This fact suddenly re-defined Chris and me as bastard children. 614 00:53:18,107 --> 00:53:23,112 Dad's arrogance made him conveniently oblivious to the pain he caused. 615 00:53:24,766 --> 00:53:29,336 And Mom, in the shame and embarrassment of a young mistress, 616 00:53:29,380 --> 00:53:32,078 became his accomplice in deceit. 617 00:53:37,170 --> 00:53:42,044 The fragility of crystal is not a weakness but a fineness. 618 00:53:42,088 --> 00:53:45,657 My parents understood that a fine crystal glass had to be cared for 619 00:53:45,700 --> 00:53:47,963 or it may be shattered. 620 00:53:48,007 --> 00:53:50,227 But when it came to my brother, 621 00:53:50,270 --> 00:53:52,316 they did not seem to know or care 622 00:53:52,359 --> 00:53:54,535 that their course of secret action 623 00:53:54,579 --> 00:53:58,757 brought the kind of devastation that could cut them. 624 00:54:01,020 --> 00:54:05,285 Their fraudulent marriage and our father's denial of this other son 625 00:54:05,329 --> 00:54:09,594 was, for Chris, a murder of every day's truth. 626 00:54:10,551 --> 00:54:12,553 He felt his whole life turn, 627 00:54:12,597 --> 00:54:14,468 like a river suddenly reversing 628 00:54:14,512 --> 00:54:18,733 the direction of its flow, suddenly running uphill. 629 00:54:25,218 --> 00:54:29,788 These revelations struck at the core of Chris' sense of identity. 630 00:54:29,831 --> 00:54:34,183 They made his entire childhood seem like fiction. 631 00:54:36,316 --> 00:54:38,579 Chris never told them he knew 632 00:54:41,321 --> 00:54:44,585 and made me promise silence, as well. 633 00:54:44,629 --> 00:54:45,630 I can't afford four. 634 00:54:45,673 --> 00:54:47,066 Who's gonna pay for the fourth one? 635 00:54:47,109 --> 00:54:50,896 Bryan can't afford four. Does it matter? 636 00:54:50,939 --> 00:54:52,419 Can I help you? 637 00:54:52,463 --> 00:54:55,030 Yeah. If I wanted to paddle down the river, 638 00:54:55,074 --> 00:54:57,598 where's the best place to launch out of? 639 00:54:57,642 --> 00:55:02,908 Hang on a second. "To launch out of?" What's your experience level? 640 00:55:02,951 --> 00:55:04,039 Not much. 641 00:55:04,083 --> 00:55:06,303 Any? Do you have a permit? 642 00:55:06,346 --> 00:55:08,653 A permit? Permit for what? 643 00:55:08,696 --> 00:55:11,133 You can't paddle down the river without a permit. 644 00:55:11,177 --> 00:55:13,571 If you want, you can apply for one here, get some experience, 645 00:55:13,614 --> 00:55:15,573 and I'll put you on the wait-list. 646 00:55:15,616 --> 00:55:18,445 No, I got this guy in here. We'll figure it out. 647 00:55:18,489 --> 00:55:21,056 There's a wait-list to paddle down a river? 648 00:55:21,100 --> 00:55:22,754 That's right. 649 00:55:22,797 --> 00:55:25,322 Yeah, it's gonna be...Well, how long do I have to wait? 650 00:55:25,365 --> 00:55:26,627 Yeah, hang on a second. 651 00:55:26,671 --> 00:55:30,936 Now, the deal is it's gonna be me and you 652 00:55:30,979 --> 00:55:34,331 or it's gonna be me, you and her. 653 00:55:34,374 --> 00:55:39,597 Next available is May 17th, 2003. 654 00:55:39,640 --> 00:55:43,949 Great. Done. The three of us, then. 655 00:55:43,992 --> 00:55:45,690 Twelve years? 656 00:55:45,733 --> 00:55:47,953 What's that?Twelve years? 657 00:55:47,996 --> 00:55:49,781 To paddle down a river. 658 00:55:49,824 --> 00:55:52,087 Let me call you back. 659 00:55:52,131 --> 00:55:53,828 You can do that, 660 00:55:53,872 --> 00:55:57,397 or you can join a commercial raft trip, go with a licensed guide. 661 00:55:57,441 --> 00:55:59,094 They may have some last-minute cancellations, 662 00:55:59,138 --> 00:56:01,706 but that's gonna cost you $2,000. 663 00:56:03,447 --> 00:56:05,274 Thank you very much. 664 00:56:43,051 --> 00:56:44,749 Helmet, man! 665 00:57:24,092 --> 00:57:28,227 [ECHOING] I'm Supertramp! 666 00:57:38,324 --> 00:57:42,546 CHRIS: "If we admit that human life can be ruled by reason, 667 00:57:42,589 --> 00:57:45,287 "the possibility of life is destroyed." 668 00:57:47,986 --> 00:57:49,335 ♪ You Can't touch this 669 00:57:49,378 --> 00:57:50,771 [GRUNTING] 670 00:57:50,815 --> 00:57:53,644 ♪ My, my, my music hits me so hard 671 00:57:53,687 --> 00:57:54,645 [SHOUTING] 672 00:57:54,688 --> 00:57:55,733 ♪ Makes me say, "Oh, my Lord" 673 00:57:55,776 --> 00:57:57,474 ♪ Thank you for blessing me 674 00:57:57,517 --> 00:57:59,214 ♪ With a mind to rhyme and two hype feet 675 00:57:59,258 --> 00:58:00,955 ♪ It feels good When you know you're down 676 00:58:00,999 --> 00:58:03,044 ♪ A super dope homeboy from the Oaktown 677 00:58:03,088 --> 00:58:04,785 ♪ And I'm known as such 678 00:58:04,829 --> 00:58:07,658 ♪ And this is a beat You can't touch 679 00:58:07,701 --> 00:58:11,052 ♪ I told you homeboy You can't touch this 680 00:58:11,096 --> 00:58:13,141 ♪ Yeah, that's how we living And you know 681 00:58:13,185 --> 00:58:14,229 ♪ You can't touch this 682 00:58:14,273 --> 00:58:15,796 [SPEAKING DANISH] 683 00:58:15,840 --> 00:58:17,276 Hello! 684 00:58:19,800 --> 00:58:21,672 Hello. 685 00:58:21,715 --> 00:58:23,935 Come. Join us. 686 00:58:25,066 --> 00:58:26,546 We have hot dogs. 687 00:58:26,590 --> 00:58:27,982 ♪ And get a fly girl And catch this beat 688 00:58:28,026 --> 00:58:30,028 ♪ While it's rolling Hold on 689 00:58:30,071 --> 00:58:31,986 ♪ Pump a little bit And let 'em know it's going on 690 00:58:32,030 --> 00:58:33,553 ♪ Like that, like that 691 00:58:33,597 --> 00:58:35,033 ♪ Cold on a mission So fall them back 692 00:58:35,076 --> 00:58:36,904 ♪ Let 'em know, That you're too much 693 00:58:36,948 --> 00:58:39,690 ♪ And this is a beat You can't touch 694 00:58:40,865 --> 00:58:42,127 ♪ You can't touch this 695 00:58:42,170 --> 00:58:43,868 I'm Mads.Mads? 696 00:58:43,911 --> 00:58:45,478 Mads. Hi.Mads. 697 00:58:45,522 --> 00:58:47,262 Alex.Hi, Alex. 698 00:58:47,306 --> 00:58:50,135 Hey. I'm Sonja. 699 00:58:50,178 --> 00:58:51,832 Hey, Alex. 700 00:58:53,225 --> 00:58:58,143 We are from Copenhagen, and you are from the rapids. 701 00:58:58,186 --> 00:58:59,274 I am. 702 00:58:59,318 --> 00:59:02,887 [SPEAKING DANISH] 703 00:59:06,586 --> 00:59:07,761 You're crazy! You're crazy, man. 704 00:59:07,805 --> 00:59:08,675 My God! 705 00:59:08,719 --> 00:59:10,198 Sonja, get away from him. 706 00:59:10,242 --> 00:59:11,722 Get away from him. He's crazy! Look, he's crazy. 707 00:59:11,765 --> 00:59:14,028 I'll make you a hot dog. One minute. 708 00:59:14,072 --> 00:59:15,464 [SPEAKING DANISH] 709 00:59:17,249 --> 00:59:20,557 I love this. Don't you love this? 710 00:59:20,600 --> 00:59:23,995 You know, this is nature. 711 00:59:25,910 --> 00:59:28,086 [SHOUTING] 712 00:59:28,129 --> 00:59:30,741 [BOTH SHOUTING] 713 00:59:33,091 --> 00:59:35,310 MADS: So where are you going? 714 00:59:35,354 --> 00:59:36,877 I haven't decided yet. 715 00:59:36,921 --> 00:59:38,183 Really?Uh-uh. 716 00:59:38,226 --> 00:59:40,054 Well, we like it here very much. 717 00:59:40,098 --> 00:59:42,753 And it's so good to meet you, man. So good to meet you. 718 00:59:42,796 --> 00:59:44,537 You know, we went to Los Angeles, 719 00:59:44,581 --> 00:59:46,757 and then we went to Las Vegas. 720 00:59:46,800 --> 00:59:50,064 Oh, yeah. Las Vegas is very nice. 721 00:59:50,108 --> 00:59:52,327 The universe is so good. 722 00:59:52,371 --> 00:59:56,723 [SPEAKING DANISH] 723 00:59:56,767 --> 00:59:58,595 The universe is very good. 724 00:59:58,638 --> 00:59:59,639 You know what I mean? 725 00:59:59,683 --> 01:00:02,337 Yeah.The whole universe. 726 01:00:02,381 --> 01:00:04,209 Just the place. The city, she means. 727 01:00:04,252 --> 01:00:06,211 Her English is not very good. 728 01:00:06,254 --> 01:00:07,821 But then we came here. 729 01:00:07,865 --> 01:00:10,955 I don't care if she's a little stupid, but I like her. 730 01:00:12,565 --> 01:00:15,263 You know you can actually go all the way down to Mexico from here. 731 01:00:15,307 --> 01:00:16,917 Yeah?Yeah. 732 01:00:16,961 --> 01:00:20,921 You can take the kayak, and you can take it all the way around 733 01:00:20,965 --> 01:00:23,620 down to Hoover Dam, you can sail around, 734 01:00:23,663 --> 01:00:25,578 and then from there you can take the river 735 01:00:25,622 --> 01:00:28,363 all the way down to Mexico! 736 01:00:28,407 --> 01:00:30,191 Really?Yeah. 737 01:00:30,235 --> 01:00:32,890 [SPEAKING DANISH] 738 01:00:34,021 --> 01:00:35,196 Come on, come on! 739 01:00:35,240 --> 01:00:36,284 [SPEAKING DANISH] 740 01:00:36,328 --> 01:00:38,809 She's so slow sometimes. 741 01:00:39,723 --> 01:00:40,941 SONJA: Here's the map. 742 01:00:40,985 --> 01:00:42,726 But I like her. 743 01:00:46,164 --> 01:00:48,253 Here. Hoover Dam.Okay. 744 01:00:48,296 --> 01:00:50,777 About 330 kilometers, I think. 745 01:00:50,821 --> 01:00:53,650 Miles?Yeah, miles, about 200 miles. 746 01:00:53,693 --> 01:00:54,781 Two hundred miles. 747 01:00:54,825 --> 01:00:57,958 Two hundred miles. Yeah, man. 748 01:00:58,002 --> 01:00:59,656 You know, I wonder if I could paddle 749 01:00:59,699 --> 01:01:01,788 all the way down that into the Gulf of California. 750 01:01:01,832 --> 01:01:03,268 Yeah, yeah, yeah, you can. 751 01:01:03,311 --> 01:01:05,052 You know, I will go with you. 752 01:01:05,096 --> 01:01:07,751 I will go with you. We leave Sonja here, and then we take the kayak. 753 01:01:07,794 --> 01:01:09,970 No, no. We go all the way down into Mexico. 754 01:01:10,014 --> 01:01:12,669 You know, because in every man's heart, 755 01:01:12,712 --> 01:01:15,280 there is a Mexican mistress. 756 01:01:15,323 --> 01:01:17,021 [ALL LAUGHING] 757 01:01:17,064 --> 01:01:21,852 [SPEAKING DANISH] 758 01:01:25,203 --> 01:01:28,423 [SIREN SOUNDING] 759 01:01:31,513 --> 01:01:33,820 Oh, man. 760 01:01:33,864 --> 01:01:36,301 I've gotta go, you guys. I'm really sorry. I gotta go. 761 01:01:36,344 --> 01:01:37,824 What's going on?Why? 762 01:01:37,868 --> 01:01:39,391 The river patrol's after me. 763 01:01:39,434 --> 01:01:41,698 I'm actually not supposed to be here, you know. 764 01:01:41,741 --> 01:01:43,700 You have to have, like, a permit, 765 01:01:43,743 --> 01:01:47,094 it's like a government thing to be here, and I didn't get one. 766 01:01:47,138 --> 01:01:49,096 If you see anybody, any of the rangers or anything, 767 01:01:49,140 --> 01:01:51,316 just tell them you didn't see me, okay? 768 01:01:51,359 --> 01:01:52,752 MADS: Okay. 769 01:01:52,796 --> 01:01:55,450 Okay, again, I'm really, really sorry, man. 770 01:01:55,494 --> 01:01:56,582 I wish I could stay, you know. 771 01:01:56,625 --> 01:01:58,018 Take care, man. 772 01:01:58,062 --> 01:01:59,628 All right. Take care, Mads.Nice to meet you. 773 01:01:59,672 --> 01:02:02,327 Bye, Alex.I wish... I wish I could stay. 774 01:02:02,370 --> 01:02:05,025 Say hello to Mexico from me. 775 01:02:05,069 --> 01:02:07,114 [TRILLING] 776 01:02:07,158 --> 01:02:09,203 Bye, Alex! 777 01:02:10,378 --> 01:02:13,904 [SIREN SOUNDING] 778 01:02:16,950 --> 01:02:19,126 [PANTING] 779 01:02:32,270 --> 01:02:34,228 [SCREAMING] 780 01:02:41,279 --> 01:02:44,586 CARINE: It would be Christmas in a couple of months, 781 01:02:44,630 --> 01:02:48,852 and the last news we'd had was about his car being found. 782 01:02:48,895 --> 01:02:50,288 I woke up a couple of days ago, 783 01:02:50,331 --> 01:02:53,247 and for the first time, it bothered me 784 01:02:53,291 --> 01:02:57,077 that it wasn't only my parents who hadn't heard from Chris. 785 01:02:57,121 --> 01:02:58,252 Honey? 786 01:02:58,296 --> 01:03:00,298 It's me. I'm sorry. 787 01:03:00,341 --> 01:03:03,083 Everything that happened, it's my fault. 788 01:03:04,432 --> 01:03:06,260 Give me another chance. 789 01:03:08,132 --> 01:03:10,177 Please do that... Come on. 790 01:03:10,221 --> 01:03:11,962 Do that for me. 791 01:03:14,355 --> 01:03:16,923 Come on. They're calling for another quarter right now, 792 01:03:16,967 --> 01:03:19,708 and I ain't got it, so will you hurry it up? 793 01:03:20,927 --> 01:03:23,887 Come on now, don't hang up on me. 794 01:03:23,930 --> 01:03:26,846 Hey, here's a quarter. 795 01:03:26,890 --> 01:03:28,326 Thank you. 796 01:03:28,369 --> 01:03:32,243 There's a quarter just happened out of the sky, 797 01:03:32,286 --> 01:03:36,029 so I'm on here talking to you again. 798 01:03:37,161 --> 01:03:38,858 I got the quarter now, let's... 799 01:03:38,902 --> 01:03:40,729 No, no, no, no, no! 800 01:03:45,082 --> 01:03:49,303 CARINE: I wondered why he hadn't tried to call in case I might answer. 801 01:03:49,347 --> 01:03:52,176 He could've hung up if it wasn't me. 802 01:03:53,742 --> 01:03:56,920 Why wouldn't he send a letter, maybe through a friend? 803 01:03:56,963 --> 01:03:58,747 It hurt a little, 804 01:04:01,011 --> 01:04:03,752 but I told myself it was good. 805 01:04:05,667 --> 01:04:09,715 He knew I loved him enough to bear with the not knowing. 806 01:04:11,717 --> 01:04:16,069 And it helped me remember that there was something more than rebellion, 807 01:04:16,113 --> 01:04:19,029 more than anger that was driving him. 808 01:04:25,296 --> 01:04:29,213 Chris had always been driven, had always been an adventurer. 809 01:04:43,488 --> 01:04:45,098 When he was four years old, 810 01:04:45,142 --> 01:04:47,927 he once wandered six blocks away from home 811 01:04:47,971 --> 01:04:50,408 at 3:00 in the morning. 812 01:04:57,067 --> 01:04:59,286 He was found in a neighbor's kitchen 813 01:04:59,330 --> 01:05:02,811 up on a chair, digging through their candy drawer. 814 01:05:05,075 --> 01:05:08,034 Whatever drawer he was opening now 815 01:05:08,078 --> 01:05:10,645 must have something pretty sweet in it. 816 01:07:08,285 --> 01:07:10,417 OFFICER: You lived in a cave for 36 days? 817 01:07:10,461 --> 01:07:12,376 CHRIS: Yes, sir. 818 01:07:12,419 --> 01:07:14,247 And how did you get into Mexico in the first place? 819 01:07:14,291 --> 01:07:16,597 Through the spillway at Morelos Dam. 820 01:07:16,641 --> 01:07:19,426 Mmm-hmm. River dries out pretty quickly beyond there, doesn't it? 821 01:07:19,470 --> 01:07:22,342 Yeah. Turns into a maze of irrigation canals, 822 01:07:22,386 --> 01:07:27,695 thanks to our dams up north. So I ported my kayak over the desert, 823 01:07:27,739 --> 01:07:29,697 and I hitched down to Golfo. 824 01:07:29,741 --> 01:07:31,351 But after a few weeks, 825 01:07:31,395 --> 01:07:34,311 a sandstorm came up and blew the kayak away. 826 01:07:34,354 --> 01:07:36,574 So I walked back north. Here I am. 827 01:07:36,617 --> 01:07:38,793 Well, you just can't be crossing the borders 828 01:07:38,837 --> 01:07:40,665 without any identification. 829 01:07:40,708 --> 01:07:42,449 Are we understood?Yes, sir. 830 01:07:42,493 --> 01:07:45,148 I've eaten enough sand to send me back to the city anyway. 831 01:07:45,191 --> 01:07:47,976 All right. Sit tight. I'll be right back. 832 01:07:49,326 --> 01:07:54,113 Some may ask, "Why act now? Why not wait?" 833 01:07:54,157 --> 01:07:56,072 The answer is clear. 834 01:07:56,115 --> 01:07:58,248 The world could wait no longer. 835 01:08:26,319 --> 01:08:30,280 ♪ Trailers for sale or rent 836 01:08:31,150 --> 01:08:34,675 ♪ Rooms to let, 50 cents 837 01:08:34,719 --> 01:08:37,983 ♪ No phone, no pool, no pets 838 01:08:38,026 --> 01:08:39,158 [PLAYING KING OF THE ROAD] 839 01:08:39,202 --> 01:08:41,421 ♪ I ain't got no cigarettes 840 01:08:41,465 --> 01:08:45,512 ♪ Ah, but two hours of pushing broom 841 01:08:45,556 --> 01:08:49,299 ♪ Buys an eight by twelve four-bit room 842 01:08:49,342 --> 01:08:55,131 ♪ I'm a man of means By no means 843 01:08:55,174 --> 01:08:58,395 ♪ King of the road 844 01:08:58,438 --> 01:09:01,485 ♪ Third boxcar Midnight train 845 01:09:02,703 --> 01:09:06,403 ♪ Destination Bangor, Maine 846 01:09:06,446 --> 01:09:10,363 ♪ Old worn-out suit and shoes 847 01:09:10,407 --> 01:09:13,323 ♪ I don't pay no union dues 848 01:09:13,366 --> 01:09:18,458 ♪ I smoke old stogies I have found 849 01:09:18,502 --> 01:09:21,331 ♪ Short but not too big around 850 01:09:21,374 --> 01:09:26,901 ♪ I'm a man of means By no means 851 01:09:26,945 --> 01:09:29,426 ♪ King of the road 852 01:09:29,469 --> 01:09:34,170 ♪ I know every engineer on every train 853 01:09:34,213 --> 01:09:37,042 ♪ All of their children 854 01:10:24,263 --> 01:10:26,483 Hi. Do you have the time? 855 01:10:26,526 --> 01:10:27,832 Time?Time? 856 01:10:27,875 --> 01:10:29,007 Yeah. 857 01:10:30,574 --> 01:10:32,706 Okay. 858 01:10:32,750 --> 01:10:34,404 [CAR HONKING] 859 01:10:39,017 --> 01:10:41,672 [SIREN WAILING] 860 01:10:46,894 --> 01:10:49,549 [CHATTERING] 861 01:11:00,473 --> 01:11:02,475 [CHATTERING] 862 01:11:12,790 --> 01:11:14,270 Front and back. 863 01:11:14,313 --> 01:11:15,662 I don't have any more clipboards, 864 01:11:15,706 --> 01:11:18,578 so get one from the other fellas. 865 01:11:18,622 --> 01:11:20,232 Next.Hi. 866 01:11:20,276 --> 01:11:22,582 Can you tell me how to get an ID? 867 01:11:22,626 --> 01:11:25,455 Did you lose your identification, sir?Yeah. 868 01:11:25,498 --> 01:11:28,022 No birth certificate? Nothing? 869 01:11:28,066 --> 01:11:29,937 Ouch! 870 01:11:29,981 --> 01:11:33,506 All right. Well, you're gonna have to work that out with the DMV. 871 01:11:33,550 --> 01:11:35,378 You can catch them in the morning. 872 01:11:35,421 --> 01:11:37,641 The closest one is Montebello, 873 01:11:38,903 --> 01:11:40,948 and we can help you with the bus voucher. 874 01:11:40,992 --> 01:11:43,299 So just come to this desk when you're ready for the voucher. 875 01:11:43,342 --> 01:11:44,691 Okay.What's your name? 876 01:11:44,735 --> 01:11:48,521 Alexander Supertramp.What's that? 877 01:11:48,565 --> 01:11:54,788 Alexander Supertramp.Supertramp. Really? 878 01:11:54,832 --> 01:11:55,789 Yeah. 879 01:11:57,356 --> 01:11:58,879 Okay, so I'm gonna look for you, Supertramp. 880 01:11:58,923 --> 01:12:00,707 I got something for you. 881 01:12:03,101 --> 01:12:04,624 Here you go, Supertramp. 882 01:12:04,668 --> 01:12:05,756 Thank you very much. 883 01:12:05,799 --> 01:12:06,974 Okay, baby. 884 01:12:07,018 --> 01:12:10,238 And one last thing.Yeah. 885 01:12:11,849 --> 01:12:14,460 Do you have a bed for me? I'm sorry... 886 01:12:14,504 --> 01:12:16,810 Oh, no. Sure, I got a bed for you. 887 01:12:16,854 --> 01:12:18,421 Sign your name right here. 888 01:12:18,464 --> 01:12:21,641 You fill this out. And I'll set you right up. 889 01:12:21,685 --> 01:12:22,642 Now, I'm out of... 890 01:12:22,686 --> 01:12:23,643 [THUDDING] 891 01:12:23,687 --> 01:12:25,079 What's going on back there? 892 01:12:25,123 --> 01:12:26,516 WOMAN: I got it. I'm sorry. 893 01:12:26,559 --> 01:12:28,953 Come on, now. Work with me. 894 01:12:28,996 --> 01:12:30,041 All right. Thanks, ma'am. 895 01:12:30,084 --> 01:12:32,522 Supertramp, huh? 896 01:12:35,394 --> 01:12:37,527 You know the drill. 897 01:12:46,057 --> 01:12:49,626 [CAR HONKING] 898 01:13:10,734 --> 01:13:12,170 [ECHOING] Move it! 899 01:13:17,915 --> 01:13:20,613 [SIREN ECHOING] 900 01:13:59,609 --> 01:14:02,438 Thanks, but I'm not gonna need that bed after all. 901 01:14:02,481 --> 01:14:04,701 You leaving us so soon? Supertramp! 902 01:15:08,242 --> 01:15:10,201 Show me your face. 903 01:15:10,244 --> 01:15:12,812 I never, ever, ever forget a face. 904 01:15:12,856 --> 01:15:15,859 If I see yours again, I won't arrest you, I'll kill you. 905 01:15:15,902 --> 01:15:17,774 This is the goddamned railroad, 906 01:15:17,817 --> 01:15:19,558 and we will do whatever we have to do 907 01:15:19,602 --> 01:15:22,213 to keep you freeloaders from violating our liability. 908 01:15:22,256 --> 01:15:23,693 Yes, sir. 909 01:15:27,305 --> 01:15:28,959 You got any ID? 910 01:15:30,264 --> 01:15:31,570 No, sir. 911 01:15:31,614 --> 01:15:33,311 Of course you don't. 912 01:15:34,312 --> 01:15:36,140 Last time, my friend. 913 01:15:36,183 --> 01:15:37,228 [GROANING] 914 01:15:37,271 --> 01:15:38,272 All clear. 915 01:15:38,316 --> 01:15:39,665 [MAN CHATTERING ON RADIO] 916 01:15:46,803 --> 01:15:48,021 Good boy! 917 01:16:05,909 --> 01:16:08,999 CHRIS: Yeah! That's what I'm talking about. Finally! 918 01:16:12,306 --> 01:16:15,483 ♪ It's a mystery to me 919 01:16:16,354 --> 01:16:18,617 ♪ We have a greed 920 01:16:18,661 --> 01:16:21,881 ♪ With which we have agreed 921 01:16:23,404 --> 01:16:28,018 ♪ You think you have to want more than you need 922 01:16:29,672 --> 01:16:33,893 ♪ Until you have it all You won't be free 923 01:16:36,940 --> 01:16:42,815 ♪ Society You're a crazy breed 924 01:16:42,859 --> 01:16:48,386 ♪ I hope you're not lonely Without me 925 01:16:52,172 --> 01:16:55,219 ♪ When you want more than you have 926 01:16:55,262 --> 01:16:58,091 ♪ You think you need 927 01:16:58,135 --> 01:17:00,877 ♪ And when you think more than you want 928 01:17:00,920 --> 01:17:03,531 ♪ Your thoughts begin to bleed 929 01:17:04,881 --> 01:17:09,973 ♪ I think I need to find a bigger place 930 01:17:10,016 --> 01:17:12,584 ♪ 'Cause when you have more than you think 931 01:17:12,628 --> 01:17:15,543 ♪ You need more space 932 01:17:18,111 --> 01:17:24,117 ♪ Society You're a crazy breed 933 01:17:24,161 --> 01:17:29,949 ♪ I hope you're not lonely Without me 934 01:17:29,993 --> 01:17:35,955 ♪ Society Crazy and deep 935 01:17:35,999 --> 01:17:42,832 ♪ I hope you're not lonely Without me ♪ 936 01:18:31,968 --> 01:18:33,230 Thanks a lot. 937 01:18:42,282 --> 01:18:45,895 CARINE: In the letters Chris wrote me from college, 938 01:18:45,938 --> 01:18:47,853 it was clear his anguish and problems 939 01:18:47,897 --> 01:18:50,203 with Mom and Dad had continued. 940 01:18:59,778 --> 01:19:01,693 He said I was the only person in the world 941 01:19:01,737 --> 01:19:04,130 who could possibly understand what he had to say. 942 01:19:04,174 --> 01:19:07,133 WALT: With whose money are you buying all these goddamn presents? 943 01:19:07,177 --> 01:19:09,701 BILLIE: I work. The only reason I'm not talking is because 944 01:19:09,745 --> 01:19:12,748 you're wandering around acting like the big-shot flirt with everybody. 945 01:19:12,791 --> 01:19:16,142 I am making the contacts for this business to work! 946 01:19:16,186 --> 01:19:18,188 You don't care at all about what I do! 947 01:19:18,231 --> 01:19:20,190 I don't even want to talk to you about it anymore! 948 01:19:20,233 --> 01:19:22,888 Don't you walk away from me, woman! 949 01:19:22,932 --> 01:19:24,063 Woman! 950 01:19:24,107 --> 01:19:26,283 Kids! Look what your dad is doing to me! 951 01:19:26,326 --> 01:19:30,156 For God's sake, look what your mother is making me do! 952 01:19:30,200 --> 01:19:32,202 Fuck you! I hate you! 953 01:19:32,245 --> 01:19:34,160 [SCREAMING] 954 01:19:34,204 --> 01:19:35,945 WALT: There ain't gonna be no party. 955 01:19:35,988 --> 01:19:37,598 I'm gonna cancel Christmas this year. 956 01:19:37,642 --> 01:19:38,861 BILLIE: Cancel Christmas? 957 01:19:38,904 --> 01:19:40,906 Who do you think you are? God? 958 01:19:40,950 --> 01:19:42,516 That's right! I'm God! 959 01:19:42,560 --> 01:19:43,953 Well, you're not God. 960 01:19:43,996 --> 01:19:45,911 You can't cancel Christmas. 961 01:19:45,955 --> 01:19:47,565 That's bullshit! 962 01:21:43,550 --> 01:21:45,204 We're 10 deep! 963 01:21:45,248 --> 01:21:47,511 [MACHINE BEEPING] 964 01:21:47,554 --> 01:21:50,818 [PEOPLE CHATTERING] 965 01:21:52,777 --> 01:21:57,738 Alex, I don't mean to be on you about everything. You're doing a great job. 966 01:21:57,782 --> 01:22:02,134 I wanna keep you on and we all wanna help you get to Alaska, 967 01:22:02,178 --> 01:22:05,094 but you've got to start wearing socks. 968 01:22:12,710 --> 01:22:17,062 CARINE: With almost a year having passed since Chris' disappearance, 969 01:22:17,106 --> 01:22:20,326 my parents' anger, their desperation, 970 01:22:20,370 --> 01:22:23,112 their guilt was giving way to pain. 971 01:22:25,984 --> 01:22:28,682 And pain seemed to bring them closer. 972 01:22:30,946 --> 01:22:33,165 Even their faces had changed. 973 01:22:59,191 --> 01:23:01,846 She convinces herself it's Chris, 974 01:23:03,326 --> 01:23:06,459 that it's her son whenever she passes a stray. 975 01:23:08,157 --> 01:23:10,768 And I fear for the mother in her. 976 01:23:14,250 --> 01:23:19,211 Instincts that seem to sense the threat of a loss so huge 977 01:23:19,255 --> 01:23:24,173 and irrevocable that the mind balks at taking its measure. 978 01:23:26,175 --> 01:23:29,004 I'd begin to wonder if I can understand 979 01:23:29,047 --> 01:23:31,354 all that Chris is saying any longer, 980 01:23:34,052 --> 01:23:37,055 but I catch myself and remember that 981 01:23:37,099 --> 01:23:39,536 these are not the parents he grew up with, 982 01:23:41,103 --> 01:23:44,106 but people softened by the forced reflection 983 01:23:44,149 --> 01:23:46,499 that comes with loss. 984 01:23:49,894 --> 01:23:55,204 Still, everything Chris is saying has to be said. 985 01:23:57,119 --> 01:24:00,818 And I trust for him that everything he is doing has to be done. 986 01:24:02,559 --> 01:24:04,213 This is our life. 987 01:24:49,780 --> 01:24:51,260 [MOOSE GRUNTING] 988 01:25:11,802 --> 01:25:16,415 Big game. Very big game. 989 01:25:16,459 --> 01:25:17,460 Got it. 990 01:25:46,576 --> 01:25:49,448 [FLIES BUZZING] 991 01:27:08,005 --> 01:27:09,528 Damn it! 992 01:27:14,446 --> 01:27:15,578 Get off! 993 01:27:57,750 --> 01:28:01,754 "Hey, Dad, can I light the barbeque, please, Dad, this time?" 994 01:28:01,798 --> 01:28:03,452 "Well, Son, you can go get the lighter fluid." 995 01:28:03,495 --> 01:28:06,585 "Come on, Dad. Please, Dad, please?" 996 01:28:06,629 --> 01:28:09,371 "Well, why not, Walt? That sounds like a good idea..." 997 01:28:09,414 --> 01:28:11,373 "Shut up, Carine! Shut up, Carine! 998 01:28:11,416 --> 01:28:13,418 "No, Billie. I told you once. 999 01:28:13,462 --> 01:28:16,465 "Don't make me tell you again. Okay? 1000 01:28:16,508 --> 01:28:18,118 "Okay? 1001 01:28:18,162 --> 01:28:19,685 "You hear me? You hear me, woman? 1002 01:28:19,729 --> 01:28:23,080 "You hear me, woman? Huh? You hear me, woman?" 1003 01:28:25,343 --> 01:28:30,783 "Sorry. Sorry, Walt. I'm sorry." 1004 01:28:30,827 --> 01:28:33,177 [FLIES BUZZING] 1005 01:28:43,970 --> 01:28:45,232 Shit. 1006 01:28:51,108 --> 01:28:56,113 No! No! Damn it! 1007 01:28:58,855 --> 01:29:01,597 God damn it! Fuck! 1008 01:29:44,727 --> 01:29:47,469 CHRIS: "There was clearly felt the presence of a force 1009 01:29:47,512 --> 01:29:50,167 "not bound to be kind to man. 1010 01:29:51,560 --> 01:29:54,780 "It was a place of heathenism and superstitious rites, 1011 01:29:56,478 --> 01:29:59,568 "to be inhabited by men nearer of kin to the rocks 1012 01:29:59,611 --> 01:30:02,309 "and to the wild animals than we." 1013 01:30:24,941 --> 01:30:26,551 Sunni. 1014 01:30:26,595 --> 01:30:29,772 Hey, Sunni! Come here, baby. 1015 01:30:31,861 --> 01:30:33,166 Uh-uh! 1016 01:30:35,212 --> 01:30:38,041 No. No! 1017 01:30:38,084 --> 01:30:40,173 [BOTH LAUGHING] 1018 01:30:42,088 --> 01:30:43,568 ♪ Out here in Slab City 1019 01:30:43,612 --> 01:30:45,744 ♪ There's different kinds of folks 1020 01:30:45,788 --> 01:30:49,705 ♪ Snowbirds and the outlaws And a great big bunch of jokes 1021 01:30:49,748 --> 01:30:51,707 ♪ Sometimes when you get here 1022 01:30:51,750 --> 01:30:53,839 ♪ Wonder whether it's worth the drive 1023 01:30:53,883 --> 01:30:55,624 ♪ Then you meet those guitar pickers 1024 01:30:55,667 --> 01:30:57,887 ♪ And the damn place comes alive 1025 01:31:01,499 --> 01:31:05,721 ♪ We ain't got much money But we've got lots of class 1026 01:31:05,764 --> 01:31:09,768 ♪ If you don't like my style Kiss my ass ♪ 1027 01:31:09,812 --> 01:31:11,466 [CROWD CHEERING] 1028 01:31:11,509 --> 01:31:14,947 But now all I'm focused on is just Alaska. 1029 01:31:14,991 --> 01:31:16,645 Yeah.Alaska. 1030 01:31:18,516 --> 01:31:21,650 All right. Let's hear it for Insane Cain! 1031 01:31:24,783 --> 01:31:28,221 Let's give it up for Slab City's own Tracy T! 1032 01:31:36,665 --> 01:31:38,623 Hey. My name's Tracy. 1033 01:31:38,667 --> 01:31:40,669 MAN: Tracy!WOMAN: Yeah! 1034 01:31:42,932 --> 01:31:47,676 ♪ Ain't no wonder I never had much to say 1035 01:31:49,547 --> 01:31:52,419 ♪ I'm just hanging on the wind 1036 01:31:55,510 --> 01:32:00,427 ♪ Ain't no wonder there's no song I want to play 1037 01:32:01,864 --> 01:32:04,954 ♪ This ain't no life I'm living in 1038 01:32:08,261 --> 01:32:10,568 ♪ Somewhere someone's there 1039 01:32:10,612 --> 01:32:13,397 Jack London is king. 1040 01:32:14,354 --> 01:32:17,053 Hey, you gonna stay with us long? 1041 01:32:17,096 --> 01:32:19,577 Well, I'm waiting on a check from my last job 1042 01:32:19,621 --> 01:32:21,840 to come into Salton City the day after Christmas. 1043 01:32:21,884 --> 01:32:24,800 I've got to start thinking about getting ready for Alaska. 1044 01:32:24,843 --> 01:32:26,584 When the sun gets a little lower tonight, 1045 01:32:26,628 --> 01:32:29,674 I'm going to start a calisthenics routine. 1046 01:32:29,718 --> 01:32:32,416 After the check comes in, I think I'm gonna try to find 1047 01:32:32,459 --> 01:32:35,854 some big old mountains I can climb every day until spring comes. 1048 01:32:35,898 --> 01:32:38,030 I've got to see how far the money's gonna go. 1049 01:32:38,074 --> 01:32:42,644 I've still got a lot of supplies to pick up before spring. 1050 01:32:42,687 --> 01:32:47,692 So, I might get another job or I might be okay. 1051 01:32:47,736 --> 01:32:50,347 Hell, we'd give you a little something for 1052 01:32:50,390 --> 01:32:51,870 the days you spend in the booth here. 1053 01:32:51,914 --> 01:32:54,873 I'm not taking any money from you, Rainey. 1054 01:32:54,917 --> 01:32:57,876 It's been a real great twist meeting you two. 1055 01:32:57,920 --> 01:33:00,575 You two look like you're doing good. 1056 01:33:00,618 --> 01:33:02,577 We are doing good.Yeah? 1057 01:33:02,620 --> 01:33:04,535 We're doing real good. 1058 01:33:04,579 --> 01:33:07,190 Speaking of which, don't you think 1059 01:33:07,233 --> 01:33:08,844 you ought to introduce yourself 1060 01:33:08,887 --> 01:33:11,411 to our little Joni Mitchell over there? 1061 01:33:16,286 --> 01:33:17,896 I... 1062 01:33:17,940 --> 01:33:18,941 [EXCLAIMING] 1063 01:33:52,191 --> 01:33:53,802 Hi. 1064 01:33:53,845 --> 01:33:54,933 Hi. 1065 01:34:00,330 --> 01:34:02,811 You selling these books? 1066 01:34:02,854 --> 01:34:05,552 I am. We are. 1067 01:34:06,902 --> 01:34:07,903 He was. 1068 01:34:11,950 --> 01:34:14,126 I like to read. 1069 01:34:14,170 --> 01:34:15,388 Do you? 1070 01:34:15,432 --> 01:34:17,260 Yeah. 1071 01:34:17,303 --> 01:34:19,131 That's good. 1072 01:34:20,524 --> 01:34:24,093 I heard you play your song last night. 1073 01:34:25,311 --> 01:34:26,704 I'm terrible. 1074 01:34:26,748 --> 01:34:30,969 You are not terrible. You sing sweet. 1075 01:34:31,013 --> 01:34:32,144 Thank you. 1076 01:34:33,406 --> 01:34:34,756 Um... 1077 01:34:36,018 --> 01:34:39,325 I was gonna go take a walk to Salvation Mountain. 1078 01:34:39,369 --> 01:34:41,110 You wanna go? 1079 01:34:41,153 --> 01:34:42,502 Okay. 1080 01:34:51,294 --> 01:34:53,731 Hi.Hi. Alex. 1081 01:34:53,775 --> 01:34:55,994 I'd like to show you around up here. 1082 01:34:56,038 --> 01:34:59,868 I've been here since 1984, more or less. 1083 01:35:02,348 --> 01:35:04,002 A lot of tourists come in here 1084 01:35:04,046 --> 01:35:06,309 and they look at that car door up there. 1085 01:35:06,352 --> 01:35:08,006 They really like it. 1086 01:35:08,050 --> 01:35:11,314 And I found car doors and put them up there 1087 01:35:11,357 --> 01:35:12,619 and I bolted it all in. 1088 01:35:12,663 --> 01:35:14,230 CHRIS: Where did you get the telephone poles? 1089 01:35:14,273 --> 01:35:17,189 A lot of people in the valley just love me a lot. 1090 01:35:17,233 --> 01:35:19,975 Everybody now, I think, in the whole world is just loving me. 1091 01:35:20,018 --> 01:35:23,500 And I want to have the wisdom to love them back. 1092 01:35:24,980 --> 01:35:26,982 And that's about it. So I really get excited. 1093 01:35:27,025 --> 01:35:29,027 CHRIS: You really believe in love, then. 1094 01:35:29,071 --> 01:35:31,856 Yeah. Totally. 1095 01:35:31,900 --> 01:35:34,816 This is a love story that is staggering 1096 01:35:34,859 --> 01:35:36,818 to everybody in the whole world. 1097 01:35:36,861 --> 01:35:39,908 That God really loves us a lot. 1098 01:35:40,822 --> 01:35:42,345 Does that answer that? 1099 01:35:42,388 --> 01:35:45,435 Yeah.Good. 1100 01:35:45,478 --> 01:35:46,958 OLD MAN: I really love it here. 1101 01:35:47,002 --> 01:35:50,092 I think the freedom of this place is just so beautiful. 1102 01:35:50,135 --> 01:35:54,574 To me, I wouldn't move for $10 million, unless I had to. 1103 01:35:54,618 --> 01:35:55,880 [LAUGHING] 1104 01:35:55,924 --> 01:35:57,969 So I'm contented here in the desert, 1105 01:35:58,013 --> 01:35:59,884 and I'm living where I want to live. 1106 01:35:59,928 --> 01:36:02,234 And I think good gets better. 1107 01:36:02,278 --> 01:36:05,281 And I think those great big tanks there 1108 01:36:05,324 --> 01:36:09,241 were the sewer plant for the Marine base in World War II. 1109 01:36:11,635 --> 01:36:14,290 If you want to, you can try putting your hands in there. 1110 01:36:14,333 --> 01:36:17,380 And I'm gonna do the same thing, just for the fun. 1111 01:36:17,423 --> 01:36:18,511 [OLD MAN LAUGHING] 1112 01:36:18,555 --> 01:36:20,600 You're doing real good. 1113 01:36:23,647 --> 01:36:27,129 OLD MAN: You can wipe your hands off on my shirt if you want. 1114 01:36:47,105 --> 01:36:49,934 Mmm. This is starting to make me hungry. 1115 01:36:51,327 --> 01:36:52,807 I was just a couple of years older than Tracy 1116 01:36:52,850 --> 01:36:54,983 when I got pregnant. 1117 01:36:58,595 --> 01:37:00,249 Wow.Yeah. 1118 01:37:01,903 --> 01:37:03,165 Yeah, I thought my husband and I 1119 01:37:03,208 --> 01:37:06,908 were going to just make peace on Earth 1120 01:37:06,951 --> 01:37:09,998 and babies and love and stay together forever, 1121 01:37:12,174 --> 01:37:15,307 and that didn't quite work out that way. 1122 01:37:15,351 --> 01:37:18,006 He left me. 1123 01:37:22,184 --> 01:37:23,925 So, I... 1124 01:37:25,535 --> 01:37:29,017 Anyway, whatever, but I ended up raising Reno on my own. 1125 01:37:29,060 --> 01:37:31,715 That's my boy, his name's Reno. 1126 01:37:33,499 --> 01:37:36,154 Then I met Rainey. 1127 01:37:36,198 --> 01:37:39,592 That was sweet. It was really good for a while. It's just... 1128 01:37:44,293 --> 01:37:49,037 You know, Reno was a teenager already by then, 1129 01:37:49,080 --> 01:37:52,388 and he was just on his way to becoming his own man. 1130 01:37:57,001 --> 01:38:02,659 And I haven't even heard from him in two years. 1131 01:38:06,141 --> 01:38:08,970 I don't even know where he is. 1132 01:38:09,013 --> 01:38:11,624 I hope I get to meet him sometime. 1133 01:38:13,931 --> 01:38:16,281 Do your folks know where you are? 1134 01:38:21,243 --> 01:38:22,287 Hey, guys? 1135 01:38:22,331 --> 01:38:24,159 Dinner's ready if you guys are hungry. 1136 01:38:24,202 --> 01:38:28,424 Yeah, we are. We're hungry. 1137 01:38:31,601 --> 01:38:33,255 I'll be all right. 1138 01:38:44,048 --> 01:38:46,007 You want to come and eat? 1139 01:38:46,050 --> 01:38:50,011 Or we'll sit here. Because I will sit here with you all night. 1140 01:38:55,059 --> 01:38:56,713 Let's go. Let's go. 1141 01:38:59,150 --> 01:39:01,370 Guys, come on. It's getting cold. 1142 01:39:04,808 --> 01:39:10,205 Check this out. Tawdry? Denise, that sounds like your cup of tea. 1143 01:39:11,728 --> 01:39:15,166 [GRUNTING] 1144 01:39:39,799 --> 01:39:44,456 That poor girl is about ready to vault herself onto a fence post. 1145 01:39:44,500 --> 01:39:49,200 And here you are, the monk of Jack fucking LaLanne. 1146 01:39:56,077 --> 01:39:58,731 So Jan talked to you about Reno, huh? 1147 01:39:58,775 --> 01:40:00,864 Yeah. 1148 01:40:02,866 --> 01:40:07,131 Children can be pretty harsh when it comes to their parents. 1149 01:40:07,175 --> 01:40:09,481 You planning on seeing yours? 1150 01:40:11,744 --> 01:40:14,182 I've only got one plan, Rainey. 1151 01:40:15,139 --> 01:40:18,186 That would be Alaska? 1152 01:40:18,229 --> 01:40:19,448 Alaska. 1153 01:40:31,199 --> 01:40:32,243 Hello? 1154 01:40:33,766 --> 01:40:35,420 Merry Christmas. 1155 01:40:35,464 --> 01:40:36,943 Come in here. 1156 01:40:46,083 --> 01:40:48,216 My parents went into town. 1157 01:40:49,695 --> 01:40:51,132 No. 1158 01:40:51,175 --> 01:40:54,787 Yeah. They went to call my grandma for Christmas. 1159 01:40:54,831 --> 01:40:57,225 No, I mean we can't do that. 1160 01:40:58,400 --> 01:40:59,531 Why not? 1161 01:41:06,712 --> 01:41:09,367 How old are you? 1162 01:41:09,411 --> 01:41:10,542 Eighteen. 1163 01:41:13,719 --> 01:41:15,286 Seventeen. 1164 01:41:17,114 --> 01:41:19,160 What year were you born? 1165 01:41:25,775 --> 01:41:27,429 So I'm 16. 1166 01:41:41,399 --> 01:41:44,010 You want to do something together? 1167 01:41:47,797 --> 01:41:51,279 [PEOPLE CHEERING] 1168 01:41:54,891 --> 01:42:01,941 ♪ I am an old woman named after my mother 1169 01:42:01,985 --> 01:42:08,296 ♪ My old man is another child that's grown old 1170 01:42:09,862 --> 01:42:16,130 ♪ If dreams were thunder and lightning was desire 1171 01:42:16,173 --> 01:42:22,397 ♪ This whole house would have burned down a long time ago 1172 01:42:23,746 --> 01:42:30,318 ♪ Make me an angel that flies from Montgomery 1173 01:42:31,710 --> 01:42:37,063 BOTH: ♪ Make me a poster of an old rodeo 1174 01:42:38,543 --> 01:42:45,115 ♪ Just give me one thing that I can hold on to 1175 01:42:45,159 --> 01:42:51,600 ♪ To believe in this living is just a hard way to go ♪ 1176 01:42:57,693 --> 01:43:02,611 You can send mail to this address in South Dakota. 1177 01:43:04,569 --> 01:43:08,617 I don't know when I'm going to get it, but I'll get it. 1178 01:43:10,662 --> 01:43:11,663 Hey. 1179 01:43:12,882 --> 01:43:14,840 You're pretty magic. 1180 01:43:14,884 --> 01:43:17,539 Yeah?Yeah. 1181 01:43:19,541 --> 01:43:21,673 And just remember 1182 01:43:21,717 --> 01:43:26,548 if you want something in life, reach out and grab it. 1183 01:43:47,264 --> 01:43:48,700 You take care, kiddo. 1184 01:43:48,744 --> 01:43:51,616 You, too. 1185 01:43:51,660 --> 01:43:52,704 New Year's resolution? 1186 01:43:52,748 --> 01:43:54,706 We'll work on it. 1187 01:45:02,470 --> 01:45:05,473 Just get your pack and get on out of here, okay? 1188 01:45:06,648 --> 01:45:09,041 I don't think I could take a hug. 1189 01:45:23,665 --> 01:45:24,622 Hey. 1190 01:45:37,113 --> 01:45:38,244 Bye! 1191 01:45:52,781 --> 01:45:54,304 CARINE: A year and a half had passed 1192 01:45:54,348 --> 01:45:57,699 in what Dad called "suspended animation." 1193 01:46:05,402 --> 01:46:08,710 The weight of Chris' disappearance 1194 01:46:08,753 --> 01:46:11,495 had begun to lay down on me full-length. 1195 01:46:22,463 --> 01:46:24,726 CHRIS: "I have lived through much, 1196 01:46:26,162 --> 01:46:29,644 "and now I think I have found what is needed for happiness. 1197 01:46:33,430 --> 01:46:36,172 "A quiet secluded life in the country, 1198 01:46:37,739 --> 01:46:40,394 "with the possibility of being useful to people 1199 01:46:40,437 --> 01:46:42,744 "to whom it is easy to do good, 1200 01:46:44,485 --> 01:46:47,923 "and who are not accustomed to have it done to them. 1201 01:46:49,664 --> 01:46:52,884 "And work which one hopes may be of some use. 1202 01:46:54,495 --> 01:46:59,500 "Then rest, nature, books, music, 1203 01:46:59,543 --> 01:47:01,763 "love for one's neighbor. 1204 01:47:05,549 --> 01:47:07,899 "Such is my idea of happiness. 1205 01:47:10,772 --> 01:47:17,648 "And then, on top of all that, you for a mate, 1206 01:47:18,823 --> 01:47:20,738 "and children perhaps. 1207 01:47:22,523 --> 01:47:25,526 "What more can the heart of a man desire?" 1208 01:47:33,664 --> 01:47:37,973 ♪ Comes the morning when I can feel 1209 01:47:38,016 --> 01:47:42,586 ♪ That there's nothing left to be concealed 1210 01:47:42,630 --> 01:47:46,895 ♪ Moving on seems surreal 1211 01:47:46,938 --> 01:47:52,988 ♪ No, my heart will never Never be far from here 1212 01:47:53,031 --> 01:47:57,732 ♪ Sure as I'm breathing Sure as I'm sad 1213 01:47:57,775 --> 01:48:02,214 ♪ I'll keep this wisdom in my flesh 1214 01:48:02,258 --> 01:48:06,697 ♪ I leave here believing More than I had 1215 01:48:06,741 --> 01:48:10,658 ♪ And there's a reason I will 1216 01:48:10,701 --> 01:48:14,966 ♪ Reason I'll be back 1217 01:48:18,622 --> 01:48:22,887 ♪ As I walk the hemisphere 1218 01:48:22,931 --> 01:48:27,544 ♪ I got my wish to up and disappear 1219 01:48:27,588 --> 01:48:31,592 ♪ I've been wounded I've been healed 1220 01:48:31,635 --> 01:48:38,033 ♪ Now for landing I've been Landing I've been cleared 1221 01:48:38,076 --> 01:48:42,646 ♪ Sure as I'm breathing Sure as I'm sad 1222 01:48:42,690 --> 01:48:44,779 ♪ I'll keep this wisdom in my flesh 1223 01:48:44,822 --> 01:48:46,998 [HOOTING] 1224 01:48:47,042 --> 01:48:51,612 ♪ I leave here believing More than I had 1225 01:48:51,655 --> 01:48:55,833 ♪ This love has Got no ceiling ♪ 1226 01:50:15,304 --> 01:50:17,523 [GRUNTING] 1227 01:52:03,455 --> 01:52:05,849 Where's your camp? 1228 01:52:05,893 --> 01:52:09,070 Just out past Oh-My-God Hot Springs. 1229 01:52:09,113 --> 01:52:12,682 I've lived in and around here for six years now 1230 01:52:12,726 --> 01:52:15,163 and I've never heard of any place that goes by that name. 1231 01:52:15,206 --> 01:52:17,078 Show me how to get there. 1232 01:52:17,121 --> 01:52:18,557 Yeah. 1233 01:52:21,952 --> 01:52:23,171 Ron Franz. 1234 01:52:23,214 --> 01:52:24,433 Alex. 1235 01:52:24,476 --> 01:52:27,218 Alex? Where you from, Alex? 1236 01:52:27,262 --> 01:52:29,046 West Virginia. 1237 01:52:29,090 --> 01:52:31,179 Okay, Alex from West Virginia. 1238 01:52:33,921 --> 01:52:35,096 [HOWLING] 1239 01:52:36,314 --> 01:52:38,099 ♪ Folks said I was full of sin 1240 01:52:38,142 --> 01:52:40,275 ♪ Because I was the next of kin 1241 01:52:40,318 --> 01:52:43,887 ♪ I don't care I don't care ♪ 1242 01:53:16,137 --> 01:53:21,098 Well, this is something out here. 1243 01:53:26,147 --> 01:53:27,191 Don't you... 1244 01:53:28,671 --> 01:53:30,542 Don't you worry about those dope smokers 1245 01:53:30,586 --> 01:53:32,893 and nudists down below there? 1246 01:53:32,936 --> 01:53:36,853 No, they keep to themselves pretty much. 1247 01:53:36,897 --> 01:53:41,031 You strike me as a bright young man. Am I wrong about that? 1248 01:53:41,075 --> 01:53:43,860 I think I've got my head on my shoulders pretty good. 1249 01:53:43,904 --> 01:53:45,731 Well, that's what I mean. 1250 01:53:50,388 --> 01:53:52,608 How long you been out here? 1251 01:53:54,175 --> 01:53:55,567 Couple of weeks. 1252 01:53:55,611 --> 01:53:57,787 And before that? 1253 01:53:57,831 --> 01:53:59,354 A lot of places. 1254 01:53:59,397 --> 01:54:01,138 Been moving around a lot. 1255 01:54:02,183 --> 01:54:04,185 Well, how old are you? 1256 01:54:04,228 --> 01:54:05,795 Twenty-three. 1257 01:54:05,839 --> 01:54:07,449 Twenty-three years old! 1258 01:54:07,492 --> 01:54:10,321 Son, don't you think you ought to be getting an education? 1259 01:54:10,365 --> 01:54:13,672 And a job? And making something of this life? 1260 01:54:17,024 --> 01:54:19,287 Look, Mr. Franz, 1261 01:54:19,330 --> 01:54:23,639 I think careers are a 20th century invention, and I don't want one. 1262 01:54:24,640 --> 01:54:25,902 You don't need to worry about me. 1263 01:54:25,946 --> 01:54:28,470 I have a college education. 1264 01:54:28,513 --> 01:54:30,864 I'm not destitute. 1265 01:54:30,907 --> 01:54:33,040 I'm living like this by choice. 1266 01:54:34,389 --> 01:54:36,217 In the dirt? 1267 01:54:36,260 --> 01:54:38,959 Yeah, in the dirt. 1268 01:54:43,224 --> 01:54:44,616 Where's your family? 1269 01:54:44,660 --> 01:54:46,662 Don't have one anymore. 1270 01:54:50,231 --> 01:54:51,710 That's a shame. 1271 01:54:54,931 --> 01:54:58,369 Hey, Mr. Franz, I want to show you something. 1272 01:54:58,413 --> 01:54:59,762 Come on. 1273 01:55:02,330 --> 01:55:03,287 Come on. 1274 01:55:10,425 --> 01:55:12,253 [LAUGHING] 1275 01:55:20,000 --> 01:55:21,653 [CLEARING THROAT] 1276 01:55:29,139 --> 01:55:33,056 It's getting a little steep. 1277 01:55:33,100 --> 01:55:36,233 A little high for me, kid. 1278 01:55:36,277 --> 01:55:37,800 All right, 1279 01:55:39,280 --> 01:55:42,283 but even from halfway out, it's quite a sight, isn't it? 1280 01:55:44,154 --> 01:55:49,681 From the top, you can see all the way to the Salton Sea, too. 1281 01:55:49,725 --> 01:55:52,510 You can see the Salton Sea from up there? 1282 01:55:52,554 --> 01:55:54,556 Yes, sir. 1283 01:55:54,599 --> 01:55:56,123 My goodness. 1284 01:55:57,037 --> 01:55:58,342 You don't want to go up? 1285 01:55:58,386 --> 01:56:01,737 Nope. I don't do these kind of things. 1286 01:56:05,349 --> 01:56:08,135 I spent most of my life in the Army. 1287 01:56:10,528 --> 01:56:15,490 New Year's Eve, 1957, I was stationed in Okinawa. 1288 01:56:17,492 --> 01:56:20,886 My wife and son were here in the States just driving down the road, 1289 01:56:20,930 --> 01:56:25,282 and some fella who'd had too much to drink plowed right into them. 1290 01:56:25,326 --> 01:56:27,284 Killed them both. 1291 01:56:31,419 --> 01:56:36,859 Now you might think the last thing I would do in the world 1292 01:56:39,601 --> 01:56:41,342 is go to the whiskey. 1293 01:56:43,083 --> 01:56:47,391 But at the time, it felt like the only thing I could do. 1294 01:56:47,435 --> 01:56:50,177 And I did it hard! 1295 01:56:53,049 --> 01:56:56,139 But pretty soon I realized 1296 01:56:56,183 --> 01:56:58,533 I wasn't doing my wife and son any good 1297 01:56:58,576 --> 01:57:00,535 mourning them with the bottle. 1298 01:57:00,578 --> 01:57:05,540 So I pulled myself together and I quit drinking, 1299 01:57:05,583 --> 01:57:07,150 cold turkey. 1300 01:57:08,369 --> 01:57:12,808 So since all that, this is pretty much me. 1301 01:57:14,027 --> 01:57:16,290 Do you ever travel, Mr. Franz? 1302 01:57:17,813 --> 01:57:20,381 No, I can't seem to get too far from my leather. 1303 01:57:22,078 --> 01:57:23,471 I do a lot of leather engraving. 1304 01:57:23,514 --> 01:57:26,561 I got a little workshop out in the garage. 1305 01:57:26,604 --> 01:57:29,129 Between that and my pension, I do pretty well. 1306 01:57:29,172 --> 01:57:31,566 But every time I think I might take a trip somewhere, 1307 01:57:31,609 --> 01:57:36,223 I get too far behind on orders and such to consider it. 1308 01:57:36,266 --> 01:57:39,095 When we finish eating, I'd love to see your workshop. 1309 01:57:39,139 --> 01:57:40,618 Would you?Oh, yeah. 1310 01:57:40,662 --> 01:57:42,316 I was hoping you'd say that. 1311 01:57:42,359 --> 01:57:44,361 It's amazing how malleable this is. 1312 01:57:44,405 --> 01:57:45,493 Yeah, it is. 1313 01:57:45,536 --> 01:57:47,103 When the leather is wet you can really... 1314 01:57:47,147 --> 01:57:48,452 It's like butter.Yeah. 1315 01:57:48,496 --> 01:57:50,280 It's amazing. And then it hardens up, 1316 01:57:50,324 --> 01:57:51,890 and, I mean, it stays right there. 1317 01:58:04,294 --> 01:58:07,254 [PANTING] 1318 01:58:33,541 --> 01:58:37,240 [CHATTERING] 1319 01:58:37,284 --> 01:58:43,028 A good whack with the mallet. Crack it down. Whack. Bang. 1320 01:59:43,306 --> 01:59:47,180 I went to South Dakota. I worked at a grain elevator 1321 01:59:47,223 --> 01:59:49,356 for this guy named Wayne. He was a really good guy. 1322 01:59:49,399 --> 01:59:51,140 So I took the Colorado River 1323 01:59:51,184 --> 01:59:54,578 all the way down through the Grand Canyon and did rapids, 1324 01:59:54,622 --> 01:59:58,234 which is by far one of the scariest things I've ever done. 1325 01:59:58,278 --> 02:00:04,806 And I took the Colorado down into Mexico, Golfo, where I got stuck. 1326 02:00:04,849 --> 02:00:07,330 Salvation Mountain. The Slabs. 1327 02:00:08,853 --> 02:00:11,073 What's the "N" stand for? 1328 02:00:12,683 --> 02:00:13,728 North. 1329 02:00:14,990 --> 02:00:16,687 Alaska? 1330 02:00:19,560 --> 02:00:22,389 Son, what the hell are you running from? 1331 02:00:23,564 --> 02:00:26,001 You know, I can ask you the same question! 1332 02:00:26,915 --> 02:00:30,005 Except I already know the answer! 1333 02:00:30,048 --> 02:00:32,529 You do, do you? 1334 02:00:32,573 --> 02:00:34,836 I do, Mr. Franz! 1335 02:00:34,879 --> 02:00:37,317 You got to get back out in the world! 1336 02:00:37,360 --> 02:00:38,448 Get out of that lonely house, 1337 02:00:38,492 --> 02:00:40,711 that little workshop of yours. 1338 02:00:40,755 --> 02:00:45,499 Get back out on the road! Really! 1339 02:00:45,542 --> 02:00:48,066 You're going to live a long time, Ron! 1340 02:00:48,110 --> 02:00:52,070 You should make a radical change in your lifestyle! 1341 02:00:52,114 --> 02:00:56,553 I mean, the core of man's spirit comes from new experiences. 1342 02:00:56,597 --> 02:01:01,079 And there you are, stubborn old man, sitting on your butt. 1343 02:01:02,037 --> 02:01:03,778 Sitting on my butt? 1344 02:01:03,821 --> 02:01:05,301 Yeah. 1345 02:01:05,345 --> 02:01:06,389 Ha! 1346 02:01:06,433 --> 02:01:10,915 I'll show you sitting on my butt! 1347 02:01:10,959 --> 02:01:13,135 "Stubborn old man." 1348 02:01:14,615 --> 02:01:16,704 I'll show you! 1349 02:01:16,747 --> 02:01:19,054 Come on, then! Come on. 1350 02:01:21,622 --> 02:01:25,060 Sitting on my butt? Ha! Yeah. 1351 02:01:26,975 --> 02:01:29,282 Come on, old man. Come climbing. 1352 02:01:29,325 --> 02:01:31,501 Sitting on my butt. 1353 02:01:31,545 --> 02:01:33,460 Come on. Keep going! 1354 02:01:33,503 --> 02:01:34,635 [GROANING] 1355 02:01:34,678 --> 02:01:36,767 [LAUGHING] 1356 02:01:36,811 --> 02:01:38,595 You're doing great! 1357 02:01:43,078 --> 02:01:45,733 Keep going. Keep going, Ron! 1358 02:01:45,776 --> 02:01:47,517 Yeah! 1359 02:01:47,561 --> 02:01:51,216 Can anybody see this? God, are you watching this right now? 1360 02:01:59,660 --> 02:02:00,661 Yeah. 1361 02:02:03,707 --> 02:02:04,882 You all right? 1362 02:02:04,926 --> 02:02:08,625 You little pinhead! 1363 02:02:08,669 --> 02:02:10,627 [LAUGHING] 1364 02:02:10,671 --> 02:02:13,630 [PANTING] 1365 02:02:25,512 --> 02:02:28,079 I'm gonna miss you when you go. 1366 02:02:29,429 --> 02:02:31,822 I'll miss you, too, Ron. 1367 02:02:31,866 --> 02:02:34,085 But you're wrong if you think that the joy of life 1368 02:02:34,129 --> 02:02:36,740 comes principally from human relationships. 1369 02:02:38,568 --> 02:02:40,527 God's placed it all around us. It's in everything. 1370 02:02:40,570 --> 02:02:43,660 It's in anything we can experience. 1371 02:02:43,704 --> 02:02:46,663 People just need to change the way they look at those things. 1372 02:02:46,707 --> 02:02:49,187 Yeah, I'm gonna take stock of that. 1373 02:02:51,755 --> 02:02:52,887 No, I am. 1374 02:02:56,891 --> 02:02:58,153 I am. 1375 02:03:00,503 --> 02:03:02,766 But I wanted to tell you something. 1376 02:03:06,466 --> 02:03:09,120 From the bits and pieces I put together, 1377 02:03:09,164 --> 02:03:11,122 you know, from what you told me about 1378 02:03:11,166 --> 02:03:13,647 your family, your mother and your dad. 1379 02:03:15,388 --> 02:03:18,826 And I know you've got your problems with the church, too. 1380 02:03:20,610 --> 02:03:24,571 But there's some kind of bigger thing we can all appreciate, 1381 02:03:25,920 --> 02:03:28,749 and it sounds like you don't mind calling it God. 1382 02:03:34,842 --> 02:03:37,758 But when you forgive, 1383 02:03:39,934 --> 02:03:41,283 you love. 1384 02:03:44,939 --> 02:03:48,856 And when you love, 1385 02:03:48,899 --> 02:03:51,598 God's light shines on you. 1386 02:03:56,080 --> 02:03:57,430 Holy shit. 1387 02:03:57,473 --> 02:04:00,650 I told you about that language. 1388 02:04:00,694 --> 02:04:04,654 [BOTH LAUGHING] 1389 02:04:10,007 --> 02:04:12,183 RON: I told you so! 1390 02:04:12,227 --> 02:04:14,447 [GUN FIRING] 1391 02:04:14,490 --> 02:04:16,884 CHRIS: Where are the fucking animals now? 1392 02:04:16,927 --> 02:04:18,363 I'm hungry! 1393 02:04:18,407 --> 02:04:22,367 I'm fucking hungry! I'm fucking hungry! 1394 02:04:39,254 --> 02:04:40,690 CHRIS: "For a moment 1395 02:04:40,734 --> 02:04:43,563 "she rediscovered the purpose of her life. 1396 02:04:43,606 --> 02:04:47,610 "She was here on earth to grasp the meaning of its wild enchantment, 1397 02:04:47,654 --> 02:04:50,700 "and to call each thing by its right name." 1398 02:04:53,964 --> 02:04:56,227 "By its right name." 1399 02:04:56,271 --> 02:04:58,882 What is this? What is this one? 1400 02:04:58,926 --> 02:05:01,624 [MUTTERING] 1401 02:05:01,668 --> 02:05:06,847 This is Viburnum edule. Viburnum edule. 1402 02:05:11,547 --> 02:05:14,681 Hedysarum alpinum. 1403 02:05:16,596 --> 02:05:19,990 Hedysarum alpinum is wild potato root. 1404 02:05:20,034 --> 02:05:21,688 Wild potato root. 1405 02:05:22,950 --> 02:05:26,867 Epilobium angustifolium. Fireweed. 1406 02:06:08,778 --> 02:06:09,910 Whoa. 1407 02:08:08,898 --> 02:08:12,859 [WHIMPERING] 1408 02:08:22,738 --> 02:08:25,610 Fuck it all. Fuck it all! 1409 02:08:30,398 --> 02:08:32,356 [COUGHING] 1410 02:08:32,400 --> 02:08:33,618 [RETCHING] 1411 02:08:35,490 --> 02:08:39,189 [GROANING] 1412 02:11:04,030 --> 02:11:05,292 Hi. 1413 02:11:05,335 --> 02:11:08,295 What are you doing up? It's 3:30 in the morning. 1414 02:11:08,338 --> 02:11:11,951 I heard you get off the couch about a half hour ago. 1415 02:11:13,387 --> 02:11:16,999 Had a funny feeling you might not be here for our breakfast. 1416 02:11:21,003 --> 02:11:23,527 I'm gonna drive you 100 miles 1417 02:11:23,571 --> 02:11:26,356 to someplace where you can catch a train, 1418 02:11:26,400 --> 02:11:31,361 a plane or hitch a ride and not get stuck out in this desert. 1419 02:11:32,580 --> 02:11:34,016 I'd take you all the way to Alaska 1420 02:11:34,060 --> 02:11:36,889 if I didn't have an 8:00 mass. 1421 02:11:36,932 --> 02:11:38,673 Ron, you don't have to do that. 1422 02:11:38,716 --> 02:11:41,067 I want to do it. 1423 02:11:41,110 --> 02:11:44,592 Get you started on this thing of yours. 1424 02:11:44,635 --> 02:11:47,203 On my great...I know. 1425 02:11:47,247 --> 02:11:50,641 On your great Alaskan adventure. 1426 02:11:50,685 --> 02:11:53,644 Here. Here's a machete. 1427 02:11:55,908 --> 02:11:57,387 Collapsible fishing pole, 1428 02:11:57,431 --> 02:12:00,260 a few other odds and ends I stuck in there for you. 1429 02:12:04,046 --> 02:12:06,657 Ron...Just take it. 1430 02:12:07,963 --> 02:12:10,792 I'll get dressed and meet you in the truck. 1431 02:13:07,022 --> 02:13:08,763 Well, my friend. 1432 02:13:11,244 --> 02:13:12,245 Yep. 1433 02:13:16,553 --> 02:13:19,165 I had an idea. 1434 02:13:20,514 --> 02:13:25,649 You know, my mother was an only child 1435 02:13:25,693 --> 02:13:28,087 and so was my father, 1436 02:13:28,130 --> 02:13:32,482 and I was their only child, 1437 02:13:35,572 --> 02:13:38,532 so when I'm gone, I'm the end of the line. 1438 02:13:39,663 --> 02:13:41,839 My family will be finished. 1439 02:13:45,234 --> 02:13:50,805 What do you say you let me adopt you? 1440 02:13:55,070 --> 02:13:59,292 I can be, say, your grandfather. 1441 02:14:03,644 --> 02:14:05,298 Ron, 1442 02:14:06,560 --> 02:14:11,043 could we talk about this when I get back from Alaska? 1443 02:14:11,086 --> 02:14:12,870 Would that be okay? 1444 02:14:20,095 --> 02:14:23,359 Yeah, yeah. We can do that. Yeah. 1445 02:14:28,408 --> 02:14:29,539 All right, Ron. 1446 02:14:31,846 --> 02:14:33,326 Thank you. 1447 02:15:22,331 --> 02:15:24,986 CARINE: What did his voice sound like now? 1448 02:15:25,900 --> 02:15:28,598 What would he tell about now? 1449 02:15:28,642 --> 02:15:31,645 ALL: ...nine, ten. 1450 02:16:21,303 --> 02:16:23,305 I realized that the words to my thoughts 1451 02:16:23,349 --> 02:16:26,265 were of less and less meaning. 1452 02:16:26,308 --> 02:16:28,528 Chris was writing his story, 1453 02:16:29,877 --> 02:16:33,054 and it had to be Chris who would tell it. 1454 02:18:53,629 --> 02:18:56,458 CHRIS: "To call each thing by its right name. 1455 02:19:00,984 --> 02:19:02,769 "By its right name." 1456 02:19:09,993 --> 02:19:14,128 [HEART BEATING] 1457 02:19:53,950 --> 02:19:56,170 What if I were smiling 1458 02:19:58,477 --> 02:20:00,827 and running into your arms? 1459 02:20:23,458 --> 02:20:25,286 Would you see then 1460 02:20:30,204 --> 02:20:32,902 what I see now? 1461 02:20:32,946 --> 02:20:34,730 [HEART BEATING FASTER] 1462 02:20:39,126 --> 02:20:40,606 [CHRIS GASPING] 1463 02:23:32,952 --> 02:23:37,870 ♪ On bended knee Is no way to be free 1464 02:23:37,913 --> 02:23:42,788 ♪ Lifting up an empty cup I ask silently 1465 02:23:42,831 --> 02:23:47,140 ♪ All my destinations Will accept the one that's me 1466 02:23:47,183 --> 02:23:49,533 ♪ So I can breathe 1467 02:23:52,711 --> 02:23:57,063 ♪ Circles they grow And they swallow people whole 1468 02:23:57,106 --> 02:23:59,631 ♪ Half their lives They say good night 1469 02:23:59,674 --> 02:24:01,807 ♪ To wives they'll never know 1470 02:24:01,850 --> 02:24:06,638 ♪ Got a mind full of questions And a teacher in my soul 1471 02:24:06,681 --> 02:24:09,075 ♪ And so it goes 1472 02:24:11,555 --> 02:24:16,125 ♪ Don't come closer Or I'll have to go 1473 02:24:16,169 --> 02:24:20,913 ♪ Holding me like gravity Are places that pull 1474 02:24:20,956 --> 02:24:25,265 ♪ If ever there was someone To keep me at home 1475 02:24:25,308 --> 02:24:27,528 ♪ It would be you 1476 02:24:31,010 --> 02:24:35,797 ♪ Everyone I come across In cages they bought 1477 02:24:35,841 --> 02:24:37,973 ♪ They think of me and my wandering 1478 02:24:38,017 --> 02:24:40,672 ♪ But I'm never what they thought 1479 02:24:40,715 --> 02:24:42,717 ♪ I've got my indignation 1480 02:24:42,761 --> 02:24:45,241 ♪ But I'm pure in all my thoughts 1481 02:24:45,285 --> 02:24:47,461 ♪ I'm alive 1482 02:24:50,899 --> 02:24:55,817 ♪ Wind in my hair I feel part of everywhere 1483 02:24:55,861 --> 02:25:00,082 ♪ Underneath my being Is a road that disappeared 1484 02:25:00,126 --> 02:25:02,694 ♪ Late at night I hear the trees 1485 02:25:02,737 --> 02:25:05,174 ♪ They're singing with the dead 1486 02:25:05,218 --> 02:25:07,133 ♪ Overhead 1487 02:25:10,223 --> 02:25:14,967 ♪ Leave it to me As I find a way to be 1488 02:25:15,010 --> 02:25:19,711 ♪ Consider me a satellite Forever orbiting 1489 02:25:19,754 --> 02:25:24,193 ♪ I know all the rules But the rules do not know me 1490 02:25:24,237 --> 02:25:26,979 ♪ Guaranteed